I QUIT SMOKING (AGAIN)

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I wrote a post a couple of days ago called NO LONGER JUST DREAMING, I AM DOING. In it I spoke of how I used to dream of the day when I no longer used. I also went on to say. That I used to have many dreams but never put forth the effort to make them a reality.

Quitting smoking was also high on that dream list. I have tried many times, half ass attempts to give them up but always picked them right back up again. I never gave up wanting to quit, but I procrastinated with setting a quit date and actually taking the steps.

I posted here on my blog a couple of months ago how I was quitting and didn’t last 3 days. Well I have finally taken the first steps towards quitting. I called the NYC Quitline, ordered some patches and put my first one on. I have not smoked a cigarette since April 24th. Today I have 5 days free from smoking.

I am irritable, tired from lack of sleep and have other symptoms of withdrawal but I feel great. I am proud of myself for taking the steps towards becoming smoke free. I put my words into actions. I am applying the same principles that have helped me stay clean from drugs and it is working.

I am truly grateful for the willingness to change.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

ISOLATION LEADS TO ONLY ONE DESTINATION

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I am noticing that I have been isolating lately as a result I believe from my trying to quit smoking. I think that has something to do with it because other than that I am in a good space.

My quit has been a little difficult only because I thought I was ready but I am not. I will not say I was kidding myself because I do want to quit. I just need a little more time to get used to the idea. I enjoy smoking even though it is bad for my health. I really enjoy it and that is making it difficult. I have cut down dramatically I went from almost a pack a day to 3-5 cigs a day since February 1st.

So although I have not totally stopped I am still better off than I was last week. I am not justifying my situation I am telling you what it is. I WILL quit eventually I know this. I am not buying packs of cigarettes anymore and I continue to post in my support groups my progress.

Some of us are sicker than others. Some of us take longer than others. It a process not a race. I will quit in my time.

Anyway I have been very irritable and not feeling like being bothered by people. I haven’t been on my social media sites as much and been slacking in my meeting attendance. I will be going to my home group tomorrow and I will share where I am at. I know that Isolation leaves room for my addiction to try to slide in, but I am aware of it and I am taking measures to correct it. I am not feeling like using or depressed or anything like that. I am just feeling agitated from not smoking.

That’s where I am at today.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

KICKING THE HABIT IS KICKING MY ASS.

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Well I have to be honest. Quitting smoking has proven to be a bit more difficult than I thought it would be.

First let me give you a little background. I’ve smoked cigarettes practically all of my life. I started by picking up the butts out the ashtrays and then graduated to stealing them out the pack. My desire to fit in eventually turned into a full blown habit by then the addiction to nicotine had it talons dug firmly into me.

I continued to smoke for years without giving it a second thought. I didn’t realize that I was addicted until I was locked up and couldn’t smoke in receiving. I remember feeling like I was going to go nuts. Even after getting through that situation I continued to smoke.

My addictive behaviors manifest themselves in many areas of my life that have absolutely nothing to do with using drugs. I am addicted to anything that I perceive to give me pleasure. I know that today and I always looked at smoking as pleasurable..UNTIL NOW!

I know that all the urges and the irritable feelings will pass, but that doesn’t stop them from coming and at times consuming my every thought. I am grateful to my support network for being there for me. Without them I would be a loose cannon. Lol.

So I smoked 1 cigarette since February 1st after years of smoking just about a pack a day and sometimes more. Am I justifying smoking that 1.

YES I AM.
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

DAY 1

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Good morning everyone.

Today’s day 1 of my quest to quit smoking. I am feeling a little jittery right now because I usually would have smoked 2 cigarettes by now. I have been posting with my support group since I woke up over a hour ago.

I thank everyone for all their support. I feel confident that this time I will be successful at staying quit. As you know I have done this before for short periods of time. The longest time being 1 month. I look forward to the challenge.

I also look forward to hearing from you. If you quit or are thinking of quitting. I would love to hear from you, your thoughts and suggestions are welcomed.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

THE PHYSICAL

This morning I have an appointment with my Dr. I am here for a routine physical. The last time I had one was in 2012 so It is definitely time. I am eager to get it done because I need to know where I stand. I will have every test done that I can. I just got weighed and I am at an astonishing 221 lbs. That’s crazy, I can remember when I weighed a measly 145 – 150 lbs soaking wet with bricks in my pockets. Lol

I am grateful that I have medical insurance even if they are robbing me blind every week from my paycheck. Don’t even get me started on copays. Regardless of that I have medical insurance and can see a doctor and that is huge for this recovering addict. When I was using I didn’t have any coverage nor did I have a care about seeing any doctors.

Today I know how important it is to get check up regularly. Today I care about getting healthy. Tomorrow February 1st is my quit date for stopping smoking. I have been praying and preparing myself for this day. I have a support network in place and I believe that this time I will be successful.

Thank you to all those who are on 5his journey with me.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

I QUIT

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Thats right I QUIT.

Well lets just say I am planning to quit.

I have been smoking cigarettes since my pre-teenage years. I wanted to fit in with the big boys. I thought that smoking was cool and I wanted to be cool.

I always wanted to be a part of something no matter what it was and smoking cigarettes was just one of the many things that I did. I smoked and still smoke cigarettes daily some days more than others. In my active addiction I smoke a pack or more a day sometimes.

Its funny, I have smoked for decades but I still cannot stand the smell of them or smoke in my face. Go figure. Cigarettes have been an addiction that I have struggled with off and on for a while. No matter what I tried I always found myself back lighting up.

Now I feel the affects of my nicotine addiction. I get short of breath going up stairs or running. I smell it on my clothes, hands and breath. I’ve seen the commercials on TV for years and they are finally starting to sink in. Smoking is a very bad habit that I need to quit..

IMMEDIATELY

I have tried to quit several times and as you can tell I was unsuccessful. I have heard it said that for some people it takes several attempts. When I think about it so did my attempts to stop using drugs. So I am going to try again. February 1st is my quit date. I am going to apply the simple process that got me clean to help me quit. Plus there are a few friends in my network who are going to quit with me. I also joined a quit forum. Support is very important and I have a foundation.

I will pray for myself, those quitting with me and all those who quit before me.

Its time to drop the cancer sticks.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease