ABOUT MY BLOG

Hello and welcome to From Struggle To Strength

This is the place where I share my thoughts. I write how I see things and how they affect me. What I post on my blog are my feelings.This is my journey, my struggles and triumphs, my ups and downs. This is meant to be a journal of my road to recovery and In no way are my posts meant to be a guide to recovery. You might not agree with it and that’s cool. You can post your comments and replies at the bottom of every blog post.

I should first let you know that I am a recovering addict. I have used and abused drugs for over 37 years. In the end drugs used and abused me. I thought my only problem was drugs but I am learning that my addiction runs much deeper. Using in the beginning was fun or at least I thought it was. After a while it wasn’t fun anymore and when I tried to stop I couldn’t. Using became a daily chore, it consumed my every thought and before I knew it I couldn’t stop using. I had to have drugs at all costs. I used from sun up to sun down every minute of every day. In the end it caused me to lose everything. I’ve been to jails and institutions and was suffering from a spiritual death. I wanted a way out and thought that there was no way out. I began to feel hopeless, worthless and useless. The loneliness, isolation, desperation, dereliction and despair started to take a toll on me. I had thoughts of suicide on a regular basis and had lost all hope. I prayed for death because it had to be better than the life I lived. I was ready to die but the God of my understanding had another plan.

I was introduced in prison to a fellowship and never utilized the life saving information that they were trying to pass on to me. One day that information came back to me when I was in a state of utter desperation and I looked for and found a meeting. Although I did not attend meetings until months later I finally made my way to a meeting and attempted to finally change my life. I stayed for a few months but eventually went back out and struggled back and forth  for a few years. I just couldn’t understand how I could live without using drugs. I still wanted to do things my way and didn’t know how to ask for help. It took some time and some more pain and suffering but I am finally starting to see a difference. Now I am able to reach out to others and talk about myself. I am making changes, changes that I thought were only possible for others and not for me. I didn’t believe that I would ever stop using drugs. I thought that I could never stop using drugs. Today I know that’s not true.

I have been in the process of recovery since 2011. I just recently celebrated my first year clean.This blog for the most part takes you on my journey from the beginning. It takes you through my ups and downs and almost everything in between. I can tell you that it has been a struggle for me but as time goes by I am getting better. I know that I will never be cured or fully recover but I am grateful for the process and the knowledge that I am gaining about my disease. The disease of addiction.

We overcome our Struggles and find Strength.

Thank you for reading my blog and for being on this journey with me.

Eric Ease

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72 thoughts on “ABOUT MY BLOG

  1. Hi Eric, it’s such a pleasure roaming around on your page and reading about your journey. You are a true testimony. Keep on writing brother…someone out there needs to read your message of Deliverance and Hope. You are already a brilliant beautiful ST*R without even trying. Be blessed.
    Chanty007

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  2. Hello, Eric. There are many things to appreciate about this page: your honesty, determination, and willingness to share your story to help others, to name a few. I also appreciate that, on this page, you do not name specific drugs. That reinforces that addiction does not manifest through just one particular drug. I know you might mention such details elsewhere on your blog, and that’s okay. I look forward to reading more. Thanks for following “Anything is Possible.” Best wishes to you!

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  3. Hi Eric, good to meet you and thanks for the follow. Thanks for sharing your experience, strength and hope. I was spared the addiction but got the depression and hopelessness that COA’s often have. My mother died of alcoholism and addiction to pain pills. My son is 7 years clean and sober and I am very proud of him – he takes 12 step meetings into prisons and I’m proud of him. May he inspire another Eric to find recovery. Meanwhile I focus on my own recovery and try to share what I have learned with others. hugs, gerry

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    • Hello Gerry. You’re welcome and thank you as well. Congratulations to your son on his 7 yrs. I have also considered doing H & I Hospitals and Institutions to carry the message but my work schedule prevents it at this time. I first heard the message in prison and I believe that seed was planted and saved my life in the end. Its definitely a worthy and very important part of our service structure. Kudos to him and to you as well for carrying the message. Keep sharing what you learn with others. You are a blessing to many.

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  4. Very good blog! Do you have any tips for aspiring writers?
    I’m planning to start my own blog soon but I’m a little lost on everything.
    Would you propose starting with a free platform like WordPress or go for a paid option? There are so many options out there
    that I’m totally confused .. Any suggestions?

    Many thanks!

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    • Thank you. I am not a writer per say. I write to help myself and others if I can. I would just say write whatever inspires you. As far as platform I dont know of too many. My blog is a paid platform and I like it it offers me plenty of options and support. I can’t really offer any suggestions there. But whatever you choose to use I am sure your blog will be great. I wish you success in your endeavors. Peace and blessings.

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  5. Eric !! WOW, what an inspiration you are! I had no idea that you wrote a blog. You, my friend have given me a huge dose of inspiration for possibly doing the same in the very near future. Thanks for all you do and your genuine selfless service. Jen R

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  6. Hey Eric,

    I’ve only recently discovered your blog so not sure about all of your written history but concerning today’s post, and I’m not sure if what I am about to say will make it better, but that is the intention. 🙂

    Thing is: I would not like me if I berated myself all day. Quitting addiction is learning to say no to destruction and yes to life. Stopping negative thinking is as important as stopping addictive stuff from getting into your body. You can not control how others think and feel about you, but there is a possibility to do that about yourself. Not saying it is easy, I can still only do it on good days – but it is possible. Negative thinking is a useless, negative brainwash. If you do the work of the brainwashing, you might as well make it a positive one. 😉

    I would say the work now is to sit with the bad stuff and realise that it is not going to kill you to. Make friends with it, sit with it, listen to it, speak with it, give it a face. Pain brings information, that is what pain is for.

    It seems that us addicts have missed out on parts of our natural development while being under influence. And now we need to and want to catch up with what we missed. Reading your story I personally am happy that you are aware of so many things that are not exactly going as you wish. Pfiew! I wish there were more men on this world that were so concious of what they feel and do. You might feel bad, or odd here and there but in my eyes you are doing great, you are on a VERY GOOD road. Every sober second brings you further away from your addiction, further from destruction. Every thought you have on looking at your current situation, trying to change things brings you life. That is so good. 🙂 Enjoy!

    I am happy that you are sober, happy that you have the posibility to share your life with us. Well, long story. Hope it is helpful.

    xx, Feeling

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    • Thank you. I always appreciate feedback to my posts. I am thankful for those who do reply because I always walk away with something useful from their comment.

      “Make friends with it, sit with it, listen to it, speak with it, give it a face”. Pain brings information, that is what pain is for.

      Although I can relate and appreciate your whole comment. I really thank you for this section in particular. I have been doing that and I never shared it because I thought myself crazy for thinking I could actually do that. Thank you for you comment because you have really hit home.

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      • Ghegheghe…. good to hear that it hit home. 🙂

        That’s why I stay anonymous, so I can actually let the crazy out. 😀 I have done that, and kept a blog on it. Not proud of the agression in some of my posts but it is a well, an un-edited diary of the path I am walking. And in that I like it, also with the bad stuff. Who am I kidding, I’m ashamed of that. Well: pain brings information. 😉

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  7. Thank you for such an honest and inspiring post. I feel such a close affinity with you and your story. While I was lucky to avoid jail, I too have struggled with drug problems for nearly 35 years since I was prescribed piles of different drugs by my doctor when I was just 17. Since then, I’ve been hooked on various drugs including dihydrocodeine and benzodiazepines.

    Now, through finding the Lord 7 years ago, which saved me from suicide, I am trying to claw my way back from depression and GAD.

    Loved your honesty, Eric, and I think your article will be an inspiration for many people. Keep looking to the light, my friend.

    God bless you.

    Steve

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    • Thank you Steve for you kind words and encouragement. I pray that you make your way back I know a little about depression so I can relate. Keep the faith and God bless you as well.

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    • I am a mother of a son who is an addict. His name just happens to be Eric. ☺ He is 25 years old. My heart aches for him. As only a mother’s heart can. Thank you for sharing your story. Learning about addiction helps me understand and cope a lot better. Stay strong and continue on your road to recovery. It gives me hope.

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    • God Bless you…I was raised with A alcoholic dad and two daughters were on drugs and alcohol. Dad passed away not from alcohol but cancer which I am sure that drinking was the cause, my daughters have been free for about 10 years, my one daughter went back twice…if you could believe she is going to country of hady this weekend and is a missionary….how good things can come from bad, she also just went thru cancer and is in remission…I so understand what you went through..( not what was in your heart and pain but) .seeing my dad and oh and my sister…they were really sad cases, neumerous nervous breakdowns, as a little kid I watched my dad go thru a horrible time and him seeing things. wow…my heart goes out to all alcoholics and people into drugs…that is why I wrote you…as one said above…negativity…bad news…take up painting or something you can really get envolved in.. I am a artist and I had many illnesses and how it helped heal me..
      Life sure isn’t easy… I had just painted an angel and called it Alfie, whats it all about….by the way, I did find out that people that are on drugs or aa…most are wonderful warm people.
      just know that you are and I must say to you pray…God is with you wether you know it or not
      Sherri

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  8. Thanks for being here Eric. We’ve been on this path together for a couple of years now. I’ve seen so much growth in you. I’m proud to call you a friend. I’m so very grateful that God chose to put us on this journey. You Rock Eric!!!! ❤

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  9. E, thanks for allowing me to know a little more about u! I’ve been connected to you for awhile, even though we’ve never met. At first it was motherly, then I realized you’re older than I thought. Lol…I support you! I am proud of you. And it to a pleasure to see you finally living in your strengths!!! Love & hugs

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    • Lol. thank you Gwen for all the support and love. Even the motherly love and support. I appreciate it and I am thankful that you are on this journey with me. Thank you for visiting my blog and I hope that you will continue to. Have a blessed day.

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    • Thank you Adele. I am honored and blessed to have you on this journey with me as well. I cannot actually add you, you have to enter your email address and you will receive update notifications or just save it to your favorites and stop by. I appreciate all your support my friend. Thank you

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