Good evening. It’s Christmas eve. As I sit here at home I can’t help but review my year so far. As this whirlwind of a year gets ready to come to an end. I pray that you are doing well. My prayers and condolences are with all those who have lost a loved one as a result of the Corona Virus pandemic. I say a special prayer for your comfort and relief. I also pray that we can overcome these challenging times and move past them to brighter days. I’ve been through a lot the last 2 years. The lower power was chipping away at me and trying to break down my resolve. Addiction and then stroke and adding depression to the mix. I almost gave up. I wanted to quit a few times. I am tired. I still have a long road to recover. The doctors told me that it might be anywhere from months to 3 years recovery time but I did not want to believe that I would have to be paralyzed for 3 years. I was determined to find a quick fix. I was going to show them. I’m still in the process of recovering. I work on my home therapy when I can. I am not always up to the challenge. I refuse to give up. No matter how long it takes. I believe that God is in control and did not save me for it to just end. I am a walking miracle and am grateful to be able to give others hope. I am always amazed when someone says that to me. I’m grateful for the lessons I have learned and the people I have met. God bless you all.
Good morning everyone, I pray that by the time you are reading this post, that all is well with you and your family. This is an especially hard time for many. I myself am not very happy with the efforts of support from our elected officials. As promises for another relief stimulus package is nothing but talk. Keeping the people dangling on strings while we are losing our homes as if we haven’t lost enough already this year. Dangling aStimulus package like a carot on a stick is utterly unacceptable. Bail outs are always quick an easy when it comes to the banks and the airlines so what’s the problem. I for one have been fortunate enough to have never needed the governments help to make it. Of course I had ways and means of making money that no longer are acceptable to me and my new way of life. With that being said. Waiting for a disability check that is not enough to live off to come every month is hard. I am at a point of desperation. It is a very uncomfortable feeling. I’ve had to humble myself and ask for help so I’ve created a GoFundMe campaign. I struggle with asking people to help me still. I am a work in progress. My health continues to be a issue of concern, but all in all I still find time to be grateful because I realize that I am blessed to be alive. God has spared my life from active addiction to a stroke last year to this pandemic keeping me safe and waking me up to have another day. I have nothing to complain about. The truth is a closed mouth don’t get fed. I am tired. I’m losing my hope and I don’t like it. They say tough times don’t last but tough people do. It sounds good until it’s your turn to be the tough one.
It’s been a while since I last posted so I just wanted to let you know that I am still here and still fighting. I continue to pray that this will all be over soon. I pray that the vaccine will help curb this virus.
I will keep praying for all of us to stay healthy and safe. God bless you all.