A lot has happened since my last post. First let me say thank you to all those who showed support and encouragement when doubt and other negative vibes were invading my peace of mind. With your help I was able to continue my search and have a glimmer of hope that everything will be alright in the end and if it’s not alright. Then it’s not the end.
I have to give a special thanks to my fiancee Dyon for urging me to apply again for a position within the company that I was working for. Well I took her suggestion and reapplied for a position that was available within my own company, I got through the interview successfully and was given a start date. I am grateful that I have a support system that loves me when I am not able to love myself. When I am feeling doubtful and beginning to believe the lies that I tell myself yet again. When my world seems to be crumbling down around me and my faith is wavering. It’s a blessing to have such wonderful people in my life.
I could never have imagined in my active addiction, that my life would turn out the way it has. I gave up on my dreams long ago, only to find out that those dreams are now being awakened. Through the grace of God which I choose to call my Higher Power, my lovely fiancee, my network, Stepwork and the fellowship my life is shaping up very nicely. I can honestly say that I am happy, joyous and free.
I packed my bags and hit the road a couple of days ago and headed to my temporary apartment in NC. I start my new job on Monday and the new beginnings with my future wife will soon follow. I am missing her being with me but it’s a sacrifice we both had to make in order to get to the bigger picture. A picture that includes the both of us for years and years to come.
I have already plugged in to the fellowship out here and have a list of meetings and some numbers to dial. If there is one thing I am crystal clear on is that if I do not maintain my recovery I will most certainly be doomed to repeat my old behavior patterns. Relapse is a part of my story and I have no desire to return to that negative, desperate lifestyle. I have the tools today and I use them. I am forever grateful for my new way of life. I will protect it at all costs.
The Journey Continues.
Peace and blessings