I love this picture and quote. It depicts strength and resilience.
For a long time I couldn’t figure out what to do withwith myself. I was hell bent on a path that was leading nowhere quick. I thought that I couldn’t do any better. I thought that I was a lost cause. Somewhere deep down inside of me I knew better, but my mind was so far gone that I couldn’t escape the grips of my addiction.
I’ve been many places and tried many things in my journey. Addiction took me through various levels of hell only to find that what seemed like my bottom wasn’t. There was a trap door in the floor that allowed me to sink deeper. Still I knew there was a better way. I just had to find it. I invisioned it many times in many states of utter desperation. But my twisted thinking led me to believe that I could never obtain it.
I’ve been fighting since I was a child.
The Struggle Is Real. Trust me when I tell you. Drugs was my escape from a mind that just wouldn’t shut off. The never ending succession of insanely negative thoughts and feelings just became too much for my young mind to decipher so I settled on believing what I was being told.
The devil 👿 tried to make me do it. But he failed time and time again. My Higher Power’s will for me was stronger than my own destructive will for myself. Although I was fooled by those devilish thoughts for what seemed like an eternity, I was eventually led to the road to freedom. A freedom that came at a cost. A high price to pay to live so low.
I’m not a survivor, I’m a fuckin warrior.
People look at me and judge me because of my past. My background reads like a violent, crime and drug fueled action movie. They haven’t a clue what it takes to survive that, be able to walk away from it and share it with others. They haven’t got a clue and never will because they refuse to admit that it takes a lot more courage, guts and resilience then they will ever have. It’s easy to kick a man when he’s down and try to keep him down. But what about when he gets back up? Now you want to change your tune and pretend that you always knew I could do it. Whatever. It’s all good. I don’t need your fake ass support and damn sure don’t need your approval.
People fear what they do not understand. So I say to you. Educate yourself, get involved, show support and encouragement. Don’t condemn and belittle people who are struggling. We do enough of that ourselves. We are not weak, we are warriors. Believe that.
Peace and blessings.