PROUD OF WHO I AM


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For a long time I was ashamed and embarrassed about my life. I was brainwashed into thinking that I wasn’t worthy or even capable of living life that I saw others enjoying. To top it off I was made to feel less than by others. Listening to the name calling and opinions of people brought my self esteem even lower than it already was. I felt less than because I suffered from an addiction. A disease that I could not control nor understand. I allowed other people’s opinions of me dictate my life and as a result I sunk deeper into isolation and became a prisoner of my own mind.

The truth is. No one has the right to put another person down or to make anyone feel less than or unworthy. It says more about them than it does about me. But being that I already felt that way about myself I was easily swayed into believing it to be true. My fractured mind could not figure out why I was the way I was. It only allowed me to agree with the assessment of others. For years I lived in a state of depression, fear, agony, pain and misery. Never venturing out past my little self made prison. I was hopeless and wanted to end the miserable existence that was my life.

Thankfully God saw fit to save me from myself. I am in a life saving process of recovery. Not just from drugs but also from all the lies I believed, from all the harsh words from others, from all the desperation, degradation and despair. I am recovering from the harm that I not only caused myself but the harm that I caused others too.

I am proud of who I am becoming and NO One can take that away from me. Nothing anyone can say to me today will ever make me feel like I am less than or not worthy.

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14 thoughts on “PROUD OF WHO I AM

  1. Hey Eric. I am proud of you too, my friend. Proud of WHO you are, as well as where you are in life now. You are an inspiration, and I thank you, thanking you for your honesty also, admitting when you have had a bad day, and sharing your struggles as well as your victories. Thank you again Eric. God’s Blessings.

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    • Thank you George. I appreciate your support and encouragement and for taking the time to read and comment on my blog. It means a lot to me and helps me more than you can imagine. Peace and blessings my friend.

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  2. i can identify with you brother. and, i decided to stop giving people my spiritual power. what other people think of me is their movie: not mine! i look inward for the source of my discontent and will only take responsibility for keeping my side of the street clean…

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    • Absolutely. I am grateful that I am moving past worrying about what others think and say about me. It is difficult at times but I am getting better at it the more comfortable I get with myself. Thank you for sharing your identification, your support and encouragement brother.

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