For a long time I was ashamed and embarrassed about my life. I was brainwashed into thinking that I wasn’t worthy or even capable of living life that I saw others enjoying. To top it off I was made to feel less than by others. Listening to the name calling and opinions of people brought my self esteem even lower than it already was. I felt less than because I suffered from an addiction. A disease that I could not control nor understand. I allowed other people’s opinions of me dictate my life and as a result I sunk deeper into isolation and became a prisoner of my own mind.
The truth is. No one has the right to put another person down or to make anyone feel less than or unworthy. It says more about them than it does about me. But being that I already felt that way about myself I was easily swayed into believing it to be true. My fractured mind could not figure out why I was the way I was. It only allowed me to agree with the assessment of others. For years I lived in a state of depression, fear, agony, pain and misery. Never venturing out past my little self made prison. I was hopeless and wanted to end the miserable existence that was my life.
Thankfully God saw fit to save me from myself. I am in a life saving process of recovery. Not just from drugs but also from all the lies I believed, from all the harsh words from others, from all the desperation, degradation and despair. I am recovering from the harm that I not only caused myself but the harm that I caused others too.
I am proud of who I am becoming and NO One can take that away from me. Nothing anyone can say to me today will ever make me feel like I am less than or not worthy.