144 DAYS CLEAN “We must use what we learn or we will lose it, no matter how long we have been clean.”
Basic Text, p. 85

Just for Today:

I can’t afford to be too busy to recover I will do something today that sustains my recovery.

Hello and God Bless You.

You know looking at today’s Just for Today I am reminded of how important it is for me to continue to be vigilant when it come to my recovery. I was just saying to myself that I need to make a meeting and POW the just for today tells me the same thing. I know that’s my higher power working behind the scenes to make sure that I understand that I need to get my ass back to my home group and make meetings. I have been getting caught up in work and trying to fix problems in my personal life lately and have been skipping my meetings. I know first hand that this is not good.

I can remember not too long ago getting so caught up in my job and personal life and not making meetings, before I knew it a month had gone by and I hadn’t made a single meeting. Well needless to say my resolve was worn down a little thin and before i knew what hit me I was listening to those negative voices in my head and I was off to the damn races again. I say again because this is not the first time it has happened. Now that I know the signs I can better understand and identify my lapses in my daily routine and my triggers. I am ever so grateful to be a part of the fellowship because it has saved my life.

I need to keep this up front and stop putting other things that pop up in my life ahead of my recovery. It is only a short distance to the next drink and after that the next hit. I have to monitor myself because I suffer from CRS Can’t Remember Shit syndrome. I am always online and talking with my network of new friends in recovery but face to face meetings are a must for me as well. I do not wish to revert back to my old habits and behaviors. If I do not put my recovery first I will be back if I am lucky enough to make it back saying I have 1 day clean. I been there it is time to make new routines and not continue the same old ones.

Today I am grateful to have God of my understanding in my life. I am renewing my faith that I abandoned while in my active addiction. I know today that I am responsible for my recovery and no one else. I have blamed everyone and everything for my past failures never taking responsibility. Today is different. I have a new set of principals and I live by a new code. Not the old street code that has landed me in more hot water than I care to remember let alone live again. I will continue to do my best to maintain what I have. I will make more meetings and stop making excuses for why I cannot go to a meeting. Work will be there after the meeting but If I relapse work is suspect..

IF I SNOOZE THEN I WILL LOSE WHAT I CHOOSE NOT TO USE. THEN I WILL HAVE THE BLUES.

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Peace and Blessings

NAM