LEARNING TO DANCE IN THE RAIN


DANCE

Hello and God Bless You.

As you have probably noticed I cut my blog back to once a week. I have to start implementing some balance in my life. With my work schedule being so erratic it was becoming very hard to also write my blog and do all the other things so I chose to make my blog a weekly post for the time being.

As much as I love to share my thoughts and feelings with you all it does pain me to have to cut back so I have decided to start sharing my older posts with you.

With that being said

I have been suffering from a case of negative thinking patterns again. I know that sometimes it can sound like crying wolf but for those of you who know how addiction works this is a battle for my life and the old negative thoughts will never completely go away. Also if you know anything about addiction you know that I am only as sick as my secrets and exposure helps defeat thy monster. Now this doesn’t happen all the time but it does pop its ugly head up in some of the strangest and most serious of times in my life. For instance I was feeling a bit low the other day and the I CAN’T tried to invade. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t continue living like this, I can’t make this new position work, I cant make a meeting today. Well you get the picture.

Of course I know that this is just my addiction checking in to see if I have a weak spot in my recovery as it will do from time to time because it not only wants me back but it wants me DEAD. I have learned so much in recovery that I am aware of this today. There was a time when I used to believe all the negative thoughts and I would be out there all fucked up right now. I lived that lie for too many years..NOT TODAY. I have a tool box full useful techniques and people who are wise beyond their years in my corner who help me.
(THAT’S RIGHT I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU)

Also I was on Facebook the other day and my friend Regina H mentioned a book which I haven’t read in a while so I decided to read it again The Power of Positive Living by Norman Vincent Peale. It has helped to remind me that I am going to live what I think. If I think that I can’t do something and keep telling myself that I can’t then guess what. I can’t. It also reminded me that I have to replace the negative thoughts with a counter thought a positive thought to out weigh the negative one. Once I do that then I have to keep reinforcing it or the negative thought will haunt me and pop back up.
(This is so true because it happens to me from time to time)
I am grateful that I use what I choose not to loose.

One of my favorite phrases is
PROPER PLANNING PREVENTS POOR PERFORMANCE.
It is just a little something that I keep saying to myself and it helps me in times when I am in my feelings.
I know that this is a lifelong fight. I accept the challenge gracefully. I have a higher power that I choose to call GOD. I pray and pray some more. I am not gonna sit here and have you thinking that I got it all together and life in recovery is so freaking easy because it is not. It may seem that way at times because I try to remain upbeat.

IT IS NOT ALWAYS SUNNY BUT I AM LEARNING TO DANCE IN THE RAIN.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

5 thoughts on “LEARNING TO DANCE IN THE RAIN

  1. Hey Eric. Of all your blogs I have read and liked, I think this one gave me some self peace.
    I often wondered how you worked, wrote a daily blog, sometimes twice daily I believe, had time for anything else in life for fun, met your lady friend. Whewww!!!
    I am retired, and run out of time, or let time bypass me, and have been amazed how you kept going. I figured “Super Eric” is going strong. So now I feel relieved that your blogs are cut back, even though I do miss the up to date occurances.
    😀😀😀 Thanks for this bit of inner peace you have given me now. 😀😀😀
    God’s Blessings Eric. Appreciate all you do. Enjoy your long distance e-friendship. 😀😀😀

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    • Thank you George. I just needed to find some balance and realized that I have to make sure not to overwhelm myself. Thank you for your support and encouragement and for being on this journey with me. Have a great day my friend.

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  2. Eric, I appreciate you taking the time, even once a week, to share your life with us. You’re the “man with a plan” and the power to implement it. God bless your heart and may your confidence be forever present, and multiply.

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