THERE IS NO MAGIC ELIXIR


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I’m sure we’ve all seen the commercial. I am not here to criticize it or to even dispute whether or not the above statement is true. I have never been to the treatment facility and cannot speak for or against it.

One thing I can say is that I am a addict. I am a recovering addict. I have to work continuously on a daily basis to maintain my freedom from active addiction. I am very aware that the problems I suffer from are much larger than just drug use. In fact I can say with all honesty that I showed signs of addiction way before I ever picked up my first drink or drug. I have been clean for 2 years, 3 months and about 5 days and I am clear on one thing. My addiction to drugs is only arrested, I am in no way, shape or form cured. For me to say that I used to be a addict and now I am not would be a lie. I am also certain that drugs were only a small part of a bigger problem. A problem that stems from the way I think about myself, talk about myself and feel about myself. I do not wish to mislead anyone who ever reads my blog into thinking that just because most of what I post is good that I do not still suffer from the ill effects of my addiction. On any given day I can revert back to old methods of handling my feelings. Insanity is only a couple of bad thoughts away.

Now before I go any further, let’s take a look at the word addiction. Dictionary.com says that addiction means..the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming. Then they go on to mention narcotics but if we take the narcotics out of the equation we are left with the true form of addiction. Which is being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming.

I have learned that too much of anything can make you an addict. If it makes me feel good and I continue to do it I can form a habit and become addicted to it. That can mean anything. I am not even speaking of narcotics or alcohol. I have noticed that I have become addicted to shopping, chocolate, doritos, pepsi and working overtime among other things. But when it comes to the word addiction most people associate it with drugs. There is a stigma attached to the word that makes people automatically think of the junkie or crackhead. Not on how they themselves also suffer from some kind of addiction or another. It is easier to focus on the negativity of the word or on someone else than it is to take a look at ourselves and admit that we too have an addiction.

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I just want people to understand how my mind works and how my addiction affects me and the world around me. I share my experiences with you in hopes that one day I can reach out to the millions of people who suffer from addiction. Whatever that addiction may be. I hope to be able to share that there is a common ground here and that no matter what, we are all more alike than we are different. I just want people to realize that someone suffering from a addiction is human too. I have feelings, I am hurting and I am only trying to get a better grip on who I am and gain a better understanding of what I  suffer from and how to better cope with it and every day life.

There is no magic elixir. No cure. There is only vigorous and continuous work. No one can do it for me. I have to want it and do it for myself.

I used to be a addict for 37 years..Now I am a recovering addict.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

 

 

 

9 thoughts on “THERE IS NO MAGIC ELIXIR

  1. I see that commercial all the time and it bugs me because I feel like it’s already hard enough to get society as a whole to see addiction as a disease. If people hear the message that “I was an addict and now I am not” is the sending the wrong message. But I guess everyone has a right to their own opinion….

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    • Absolutely. It’s misleading and sending out a message that is damaging to families of addicts who are ready think that it’s easy to stop using. I get asked all the time why don’t they just stop. That’s why I post my journey. I want people to know the truth. Recovery is possible, it takes work and it’s a full time job. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your taking the time to read my blog. Have a great day.

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  2. A great post thank you! It made me smile when I read Doritos 😀 with you on that one… But seriously as I have been working on myself and came to accept that I had become a co-dependant and started working to address that ( I didn’t understand what it meant for a long time so was in denial) that I realised just what addiction can mean. Some of my ‘home group’ go to so many different fellowships they just don’t have enough days in the week to attend all the groups, the many different strands and forms addiction takes. Cross addiction is a serious issue as it’s not addressing the reasons – like you say, but as long as you aren’t holding up the 7-11 for a bag of chips I think you’ve got that one under control 😊 I know I am
    Making light of a serious condition ( cross addiction or multiple addictions) and hope you accept my comments in the way they are meant. Call it British humour.
    But I totally agree we are never an ex addict and to think likewise is a dangerous place to be. Thank you again for a thought provoking post – karen x

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    • I appreciate your humor. Today I can laugh at the craziness of my addiction. For that I am grateful. I appreciate your comments and look forward to hearing from you when I post. No matter what our addiction we are all in this together. We all come From Struggle To Strength. Have a fantastic day.

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  3. Well Eric, your desire is to reach out to the millions who suffer from addictions. I believe you are well on your way, and with your honesty, humility, talents, giftings, and intelligence that you are growing more into all the time, you will achieve your goal, and many will be helped and blessed. Many are helped by you now, but that number will multiply by leaps and bounds.
    You are only at the half century 😀 mark in life, so you have lots of time yet to share.
    ( one or two things to point out my friend, there is nothing wrong with chocolate, or chocolate chip cookies ) even though my wife tells me I need to cut back. See Eric, you confirmed what she has been telling me, you have helped another person, or me again.
    I think I will have a cookie, and think about it. 😀 🍪
    God Bless you my Friend. You are an encouragement and inspiration.

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