RECOVERY. IT’S NOT EASY. BUT TOTALLY WORTH IT


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When I first came into recovery I looked for the easy way out. I looked for any and all the loop holes. I wanted my recovery handed to me on a silver platter. I was so used to taking the easy way that I became lazy. I wouldn’t do anything that required too much effort.
Thinking back, my addiction was anything but easy. It was a full time struggle. It was work and it took plenty of energy and effort to pay such a high price to live so low.

So naturally I came into recovery with distorted thinking patterns. I thought that I would get help so I could use easier. I thought I would get to see a doctor and talk to a psychiatrist. Lol. I told you distorted thinking patterns. I quickly found out that I wouldn’t be receiving that kind of help in this type of environment. I was discouraged at first but I kept coming. I knew that they were lying and I was determined to get in on what they were obviously trying to hide from me.

The more I kept coming the more I began to understand what the program was all about. I was still resistant and made my process a lot harder than it had to be. Once I stopped resisting and I was finally able to surrender. I was able to reap the benefits of recovery. The real work had yet to begin but I was feeling hopeful about being able to stay clean. My road to recovery has not been easy. I have discovered things about myself and I struggled with acceptance. Denial ran very deep. I covered up a lot in my years of active addiction and now I am learning how to deal with the feelings and heal from the past.

It’s a journey. At times I want to give up. But when I think about what I have gained so far and what I have yet to gain. I know giving up would be a major mistake. I’ve made some pretty bad decisions in my life time, but the best decision I ever made was to give myself a break. Staying connected to the people in recovery has provided me with a opportunity to live a life beyond my wildest dreams. Staying clean is not easy.. But it’s well worth it.

Everyday is not magically delicious and in life I will always have ups and downs. But my worse day in recovery is way better than my best day using.

That’s a fact.

Peace and blessings

Eric Ease

One thought on “RECOVERY. IT’S NOT EASY. BUT TOTALLY WORTH IT

  1. Amen Eric, amen! Nobody should ever say recovery is easy; some may get to it easier than others but it is in no way easy, but it is most definitely worth it for the person with the addiction, their family and friends, and the community as a whole!

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