I had the privilege of sharing my experience, strength and hope at a detox unit yesterday. I have done it before and I always get a sense of satisfaction when I leave. I remember when it was me sitting there and H&I would come to the facility to share the hope. I didn’t get the message because I was not ready to stop using. I wasn’t ready because I believed that I would never stop using.
As I was sharing I was looking at each individual and couldn’t help but wonder if I was getting through to them. I was hopeful and I shared my experiences from my past and then proceeded to tell them about my life today. I shared my gratitude for the fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous and how the program has help me. I let them know that I was once where they are and that they can get clean if they want to. It has to be a decision that they have to make. No one can get clean for someone else. It truly is an inside job.
In the end they were allowed to share whatever was on their minds. I was amazed at the eagerness and the willingness that they displayed. They also took meeting lists and some of the literature to read. I left there will the feeling of gratitude. I felt good, like I had accomplished a mission. It was a great feeling.
It got me to thinking about doing service on another level. I always help out on the meeting level. I have done Secretary, Hospitality and GSR. I Co-chaired meetings and always help set up and break down. I thought about doing H&I next. I remember wanting to do it before but I didn’t have enough clean time. I will definitely look into now that I have enough time and see if that would be something that I would like to do. I will go to the H&I meeting and see what I need to do. I am grateful for those that shared the message with me and look forward to doing my part to carry this life saving message to others.
I can’t keep it, unless I give it away.