THE GREATEST GIFT OF ALL

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I have been writing my blog for 4 years and 1 week.  My 4 year blogiversary was November 10th. I didn’t think to celebrate it because I was too busy riding the high that I was on from celebrating my 2 year Anniversary in recovery. But when I think about it this milestone is just as important.

It’s important for many reasons  but the main reason why my blog is so important to me is because it has proven to be a major tool in my recovery arsenal. Writing my story and updating my journey is as valuable to me as making meetings and doing step work. It is my avenue to release. It helps me to stay focused. It helps me to remember my past so it doesn’t become a part of my future.

I found out that writing not only helps me, but I have also been able to help others along the way. My blog although I didn’t see it when I started has become another way for me to do service. Giving back without looking for anything in return. I have been blessed to know that my writing has been read and identified with by many people from all walks of life. Who would have thought that I could do such a thing. Me the guy who’s whole life was centered in serving self. I am amazed and I am humbled all in one breath.

I am grateful, thankful and honored to be in a position to be able to give someone some hope. Someone who might be thinking that there’s no way out. Someone like me who once thought that I could NEVER stop using. Words cannot explain how that makes me feel. I can only express it by continuing to share my story. So yes my blog is very important to me and it’s anniversary deserves to be recognized by me.

Thank you to everyone who reads, comments, likes and follows From Struggle To Strength. I appreciate your support, love, encouragement and kind words. I appreciate your readership. I appreciate you. Thank you.

GOOD MORNING

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Today’s a great day.
LIVE , LOVE, LAUGH AND LET GO.

I am grateful for everyone and everything in my life today. I recognize the difference in how my life is shaping up compared to how my life used to be not to many 24’s ago.

Then

I was always angry, frustrated, lonely, in despair, desperate, lost, useless, worthless and disconnected. My life was in shambles. I just lived to used and used everyday to live. I thought that was all I could expect from life. I had lost all hope of ever accomplishing anything. I gave up on myself and settled for less than I was worth.

Now

Life is amazing. I am learning to love myself. To not be so hard on myself. It’s a process. I am very hard on myself and I am learning not to take myself so serious all the time. I feel a sense of purpose and the freedom I am experiencing is nothing short of spectacular. I feel like I finally belong somewhere and that I can make a difference. I am willing to give back what was so freely given to me. I help people and I am no longer afraid to admit when I need help or to ask for it. I am happy and joyous. I look forward to waking up and whatever the day brings.

The difference

The difference came about from devine intervention. I know that it was the God of my understanding that brought forth this change. I cried out for help and the universe answered. The difference is this time I heard it and was willing to do something about it. I finally realized that I can pray all day but if I am not willing and if I do not do the work necessary nothing will happen. I cannot sit around and expect my life to change if I do nothing to bring about that change. I also know that I have to remain vigilant. I cannot expect to keep this gift I have been given without the continuously working on myself. Construction is always underway. Change happens when I am in the solution and not stuck in the problem.

Gratitude is my Attitude.

WE DO RECOVER.