I wish I could say that I changed my thinking and now I am cured. Ha! That would be like that dude from TV who was an addict for 10 years and now he’s not.
What I can say is I practice changing the way I think and I have noticed a tremendous change in the way I live. The way I choose to go about my days. The way I respond to people and the way they respond to me. I can also say that my life has gotten a whole lot better but I still have those days. You know the days when I get the fuck it’s. The days when I just don’t want to do the right thing. My thinking is upside down and will always be subject to cause chaos.. If I allow myself to dwell on those negative thoughts.
It’s all about making decisions. Trying to make the right decisions. Not using my thinking as an excuse to do wrong but rather taking responsibility to do right. I have plenty of days when my thoughts run wild and fear sets in and I begin to feel awkward, alone and doubtful. The difference is today I am learning that at any given moment. I can turn those thoughts around.
I have a choice. I exercise my option to choose to do things differently. I choose not to be that same person I was yesterday. I choose to explore and try a new way. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to do so. My old thinking almost cost me my life. My new thinking afforded me the opportunity for a better life.
Peace and Blessings