The harsh reality about my addiction is that I was unable to love anything or anyone but the drugs. I didn’t even have love for myself. I became incapable of feeling for the next person. There was no empathy, no sorrow, no compassion. There was only the undeniable urges to find the ways and means to get and use. To continue to get and use more.

By any means necessary.
Everything else was secondary.

While caught up in the grips of my addiction. I didn’t realize this. I didn’t see the damage that I was causing everyone around me. The hurt in their eyes. The pain in their hearts. Addiction is a self centered disease. It will have you believe that nothing else matters. It will make you do things that you would never in a million years think of doing. It will have you believe that nothing is wrong with you. It’s everyone else that has a problem.

Cunning, Baffling and Insidious. My addiction had me so confused that I believed death would have been better than living. It made me believe that I was worthless, useless and that no one gave a damn if I lived or died. I turned me against anyone and everyone who cared and tried to help.

I believed the lies and almost paid for it with my life. I will be forever grateful to the recovery process. For I am learning that all the things I thought were true.

We’re ALL lies.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

4 thoughts on “THE POWERFUL TRUTH

  1. So so true my friend! I recognise those thoughts and feelings so well. I didn’t ‘choose’ to love an active addict but one in recovery, but once the relapse happened, all of the above became mine and his life. The tricks that drugs can play on the addict and those living or in contact with them are evil and very sad. I thank your HP that you are now able to recognise it for what it is. 😊

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    • I am grateful that I am not that person anymore. It pops up in my head from time to time but I do not allow it to rent space. Thank you for your comment Karen. I truly appreciate your support. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

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