Negative thoughts turn into negative actions.

Ever since I was a little boy I can remember having negative thoughts about myself and my surroundings. Seeds of failure and low self worth were planted and took hold at a early age. As the years went by those seeds grew and flourished.

When drugs entered the picture I was locked and loaded. I lost the ability to see anything good about myself. I would say things like I will never amount to anything so why bother. I am just plain bad, stupid, ugly. So forth and so on. I’m sure you get the picture.

Those negative affirmations dictated my path and lead me to a life of self destruction, self hate and self harm. I didn’t see a way out and proceeded to live life according to my beliefs. I didn’t understand that the words that I spoke to myself, was the fuel that was added to a fire that was already burning out of control.

I had no idea back then what positive affirmations were. I didn’t understand how important it is to speak positively to myself and about myself. I had to learn how to do that. I am practicing speaking positive things not only to myself but to others as well. I have to reprogram my thought process and practice backing it up with my actions.

For me this is a difficult task at times. I have been conditioned for so long to being negative and hard on myself. I had become accustom to failure and accepted it as if it was supposed to be that way.

I am not a failure. I am not my past.

Today with help. I am speaking and writing myself into a better way of life. I am beginning to see that there is light. Not at the end of the tunnel, but right here in the tunnel. I believe that I was lied to and in turn by believing those lies, I lied to myself. I gave up, surrendered without investigating and seeking the truth for myself.

Now that I am seeking the truth. I have uncovered that I am not all those things but something all together different. I am somebody. I am smart, handsome and worthy. There is nothing that I cannot do or become. I know this today as being fact. I have been living it to the best of my ability ever since it was suggested to me.

I believe that there is so much more to me and I will not rest until I see what I say come true.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

13 thoughts on “I AM WHAT I SAY I AM

  1. This is very well written. Negative thoughts become habit and if we don’t learn to combat them with positivity within ourselves, nothing anyone ever says or does will change the way that we feel about ourselves. One of the hardest things to do is change the way you feel about yourself. I’m proud of the work you’ve done with that. You’re an inspiration to all of us that struggle with it.

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    • Thank you very much Amb for commenting on my post. I agree and have experience with my negative thoughts turning into habits. It is very difficult to change self perception especially when I have been beating myself up for years but I am slowly learning and practicing positive affirmations and self promotion. I fall short at times but I will never give up. Thank you for your kind words of support and encouragement. Have a fantastic day.

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    • Thank you very much. It is a every day, up hill battle but I am learning that such is life. We have our ups and downs but we keep moving forward no matter what. I love myself today and I am grateful that I can say that and believe it. I appreciate your taking the time to stop by and comment. It means a lot to me. Have a great day. 🙂

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  2. Its an amazing post.
    In the midst of battling my depression with my one year sobriety date just around the corner…. it is exactly what I needed to be reminded of.
    Positive MIND = Positive LIFE.
    I deserve to be happy. x

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    • Yes you do deserve to be happy. Congratulations on your sobriety. Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate your taking the time to read and share my blog with your readers. Have a blessed evening. 🙂

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