I remember in my active addiction always looking for the easy way out. Anything that took too much time or effort was beyond my scope and train of thought. So I always looked for the simplest way to do things.

When I came into recovery I had that same mentality. I would pick and choose what suggestions I would take and what principles I would apply. I still wanted to do things my way. As a result I paid the price of relapse and suffering from active addiction time and time again.

I had heard that recovery is a simple process. I didn’t understand why then, was I having such a difficult time. I didn’t realize that I was the  problem and I was complicating my recovery process with my resistance to change and follow a few suggestions.

It took a couple of years for me to finally understand that I had no wins. That I had no control over my addiction. That I could no longer avoid the real problem. ME. That I needed to start to take the help and suggestions being offered seriously. That I needed help and I didn’t have a clue how to go about getting it.

The help was there all the time. All I had to do was ask. That was and still is the hardest part for me. Asking for help. Sometimes I still find it difficult but my fear is lessened when I hear others share that they struggle in that area too.

One thing that I have to keep in mind is that.
It’s ok to ask for help. It is not seen as a weakness and it won’t make me a target for anything other than to receiving the help that I asked for.

I have learned that it’s ok to ask for help and to share what I am going through. I am also learning to acknowledge my feelings and not stuff them. I am grateful that recovery is not easy. I am grateful that I am forced to take a hard look at my reality and deal with it.

Looking back on my life. I never thought It would be possible that I could ever get clean. I never thought that I would ever amount to anything. I was wrong. I had counted myself out because I was afraid of doing the hard work. I never gave myself a chance because I would rather settle for the easy way out.

Now I know better. Nothing and I mean nothing worth having or doing comes easy. My life in recovery is not easy but it is oh so worth it.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

4 thoughts on “THE PROMISE OF HOPE

  1. Love this post thank you! I have never actually shown K your blog I have suggested he reads it but not sure that he has, by I am going to physically show him this post and ask him to read it when I get home from work – I know he will relate! If he doesn’t then I really do have him wrong, we are close again to detox no he is close again to detox, this might help him see why he keeps relapsing. Thank you for sharing

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  2. Good Morning Eric. You just described me in my earlier attempts to stay sober. I wasn’t about to take the suggestions. It seemed to flippin’ hard. Write a 4th step – are you crazy? That’s too much to do… go to a meeting every day oh hell no…. and the list goes on. I, like you, experienced relapsed after relapse. Now that I look back – all that relapsing was what was hard. Especially coming off of it. Grateful that just for today I choose to stay and do the hard work. You are right my friend, it is worth it. I now look at asking for help as a sign of strength. It takes courage to get out of our comfort zone and say “I am going through ——” I can’t deal with it on my own. Have a beautiful day!

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    • Good morning Vicky. I learned some valuable lessons along the way. You are absolutely right it takes courage to get out of that comfort zone and ask for help. I am so glad that I didn’t remain stuck in that old familiar and was able to embrace the new although sometimes uncomfortable it is definitely worth it. Thank you for sharing your identification and for your support and encouragement. Have a fantastic day 🙂

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