DRUG DREAMS


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Last night I had a dream that was so real that I woke up terrified that I had used. I haven’t had a drug dream in quite some time and I was a bit shook by it.

Every once in a while during the day I might have a flashback but the dreams stopped a few months ago. I am constantly reminded of my active addiction at work. There are more than a few addicts who work for my company. I can relate to them of course because not to many 24’s ago that was me. So I am reminded and have the occasional flashback.

I know that the dream was just that..A dream. It is not my reality today. I have no desire to return to that part of my life. I did not entertain the thoughts. I did not go back to sleep and continue to dream about using. I shared the experience with some of network and I feel better knowing that those dreams don’t have to come true.

I put it out there and let it go. I have no intentions to keep them secret nor do I have to be embarrassed about having them. I am human and I have used for almost 40 years. For me to think that because I am clean I shouldn’t have drug dreams is ridiculous.

Secrets keep me sick.
I reveal them so they can die in the light of exposure.

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Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

7 thoughts on “DRUG DREAMS

  1. It sounds like you handled this well, talking to your support network,reminding yourself it was not real, and asking yourself: what’s going on that I need to pay attention to? One other technique some people have used, for any bad dream, is to imagine a different ending, in other words, rewrite the script. You don’t need to go back into the dream if that feels risky. You can imagine how you want things to be. You can see yourself walking away from danger, taking a better road, going to a meeting and having a great time staying clean and sober, etc. I remind myself frequently to give my hopes more attention than my fears. But we do need to pay some attention to the fears, to stay safe.

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    • I am grateful for the tools I have at my disposal today and the willingness to use them. I agree with you and I do and I am rewriting the script also I agree that I need to pay more attention to my hopes but never forget my fears. For if I do I shall be doomed to repeat them. Thank you for your comments and positive feedback. I always welcome them. 🙂

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  2. I think it’s our subconscious trying to escape from whatever is upsetting us while awake. “Hey, remember what we USED to do…?”
    I haven’t had a using dream for a number of years, but they scared me the first few times.
    Thanks for the reminder. 🙂

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  3. Using dreams thankfully are just that dreams not reality. I seem to go through streaks of them and then go months and months without any. I find that when I’m having them there is something going on in my life that is disturbing me. Grateful that today I don’t have to use behind anything and I never have to let a drug dream be a reality. Thanks for sharing this Eric. Love & light always

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    • I agree Vicky. Its usually something going on. Usually stress for me. I too have them and then go months without them. Thank God I have the tools to deal with them today. Thank you for always sharing your identification Vicky. I truly appreciate it. 🙂

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