I spent a lot of years wondering what was my purpose in life. I think I have finally got a clue.
I remember when I was a kid I wanted to be a doctor. A dentist to be exact. I had a friend who’s father was a dentist and they had a very nice house and a lot of money. I thought that would be me. As time went on I think I changed my mind so many times that I just gave up on dreaming of what I would become. When I started using all bets were off. All my hopes and dreams were smashed and discarded. I had lost all hope.
As a adult I knew that I was destined to be more than a bum. More than some washed up drug addict but I didn’t know how to go about getting out of the mess I made of my life. With thoughts of using clouding my every waking minute I had again lost all hope. I settled for where i was and believed that it was where I would stay until I died. I couldn’t stop using and had no idea that there where people out there that felt the same way i did, but found a way out.
I was blessed to have been spared death and to have found a new way to live. I was lucky, so many of my friends didn’t make it out. I think to myself at times and wonder why was I spared. What is so damn special about me that I was able to make it out of the depths of the hell in which I lived. Why me? I am learning that I should be grateful and not question why. I should just learn from my experiences and share with others what I have learned in hopes that I may be a light for those who are still suffering in silence in the darkness of active addiction.
I am thankful that I am able to share my story with others and I only hope that through my experiences someone can make a connection, have some identification and get some hope that they too can make it out of the darkness. I know how they are feeling because I too have felt that way. I have lived that life, I have given up on ever finding a way out. I know exactly how they feel because I am and will always be an addict.
The difference is I am a addict in recovery. I am practicing a new way of life that has offered me the opportunity to help others. The same way others have helped me.
My purpose today is to give it away.
Peace and Blessings
Eric Ease
I forgot how much I enjoyed reading your blog. This is a cool relatable post
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Thanks Brad. I appreciate that. How are you doing brother?
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I am okay man. Had a bad few days so not doing too good but thanks for asking, appreciate it. How are you?
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This too shall pass brother. Hang in there. Life is full of ups and downs. I’m great Brad. Thanks for asking.
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Good to hear mate.
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Good Morning Eric. I’m grateful you found a way out and found your way to recovery. You are such an inspiring person. You reach out and help so many people. Very blessed to call you my friend. Stay Blessed
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Thank you Vicky. Have a blessed day.
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There’s no doubt that you are here, alive and sober because you are willing to put in the work required to stay sober. Maybe some luck as well for us both as to why we didn’t die out there. It was definitely possible every time we used. Glad you around to experience life fully. Thanks for sharing another great thought.
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Thank you. I am grateful that WE are here to share our experience with others it definitely didn’t have to be this way.
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