Wow is all I can say. When I look at where I am today, compared to where I was just 2 short years ago.
For a long time everything looked gray. Life was bland, dull and meaningless. I was angry at the world for passing me by. I felt like I was dealt a bad hand and that the world owed me something. I was sure everything that has happened to me was someone else’s fault and I wanted someone to pay for all the misery I suffered through.
I wanted retribution.
Boy was I wrong. I was misguided and delusional. I placed my focus outward to solve my issues when all the while the answers were inside of me. I had no idea how to go about searching inside for relief. I couldn’t understand what that entailed. I had to humble myself and ask for help.
I’ve come to realize as a result that happiness is not something that I can obtain from people, places or from accumulating things. Happiness comes from inside and extends itself outward. Where I was once bitter at my life’s circumstances I am learning how to take the good and the bad and make due. I am learning how to make the best of what I have and am working with at any given moment.
Life is what I make it. I am who I am, I am no longer the victim, I am no longer the giant of my dreams. I am no longer who you want me to be, or who I think you want me to be. I am happy to be who I am at this moment.
I am beautiful and content to be in the skin that I am in.
Peace and Blessings