EXPOSING MY TRIGGERS PART IV: LONELINESS


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First and foremost I have to remind everyone that what I post on my blog is about ME. My posts are not aimed at or specifically about anyone else. There is no reason for anyone to take what I post personal for 1 main reason.
I DON’T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY. So if my posts have triggered something in you. You should take a look at it..Not at ME.

I can break this trigger into 2 categories.
Loneliness and Isolation

For me loneliness has been brought about by my isolating myself from the outside world. In my active addiction I didn’t trust people, I was ashamed of what and who I had become, I had lost all hope and my self esteem was non existent. I felt shame, guilt and remorse and built a self made prison that I locked myself away in for what would have been eternity had I not found the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous.

As a result of my isolating myself from others in the end I was all alone. I had no one to turn to, talk to, hang out with and I was lonely. I pushed everyone who loved and cared for me away. I thought that no one loved me or even cared if I lived or died. I continued to feed those lies to myself and continued to use believing that I was all alone.

Today loneliness and Isolation are warning signs that can become triggers. They will lead me back to that road of despair if I do not take the proper precautions to address them. I am grateful for the fellowship and my network.
The slogan NA: Never Alone
Means so much to me. I know what it feels like to be alone and I would never wish to feel like that ever again.

I thank each and every person in my network and in the fellowship in general. It is because of you that I am able to share my experience, strength and hope and get the help that I so desperately need on a daily basis. I am grateful that I am not alone.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

4 thoughts on “EXPOSING MY TRIGGERS PART IV: LONELINESS

    • Thanks Gary. Yes blogging has been a tremendous help. It is definitely therapeutic in the sense of sharing my experiences and getting feedback, support and encouragement. Also knowing that others can relate and share their experiences as well.

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