EXPOSING MY TRIGGERS PART IV: LONELINESS

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First and foremost I have to remind everyone that what I post on my blog is about ME. My posts are not aimed at or specifically about anyone else. There is no reason for anyone to take what I post personal for 1 main reason.
I DON’T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY. So if my posts have triggered something in you. You should take a look at it..Not at ME.

I can break this trigger into 2 categories.
Loneliness and Isolation

For me loneliness has been brought about by my isolating myself from the outside world. In my active addiction I didn’t trust people, I was ashamed of what and who I had become, I had lost all hope and my self esteem was non existent. I felt shame, guilt and remorse and built a self made prison that I locked myself away in for what would have been eternity had I not found the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous.

As a result of my isolating myself from others in the end I was all alone. I had no one to turn to, talk to, hang out with and I was lonely. I pushed everyone who loved and cared for me away. I thought that no one loved me or even cared if I lived or died. I continued to feed those lies to myself and continued to use believing that I was all alone.

Today loneliness and Isolation are warning signs that can become triggers. They will lead me back to that road of despair if I do not take the proper precautions to address them. I am grateful for the fellowship and my network.
The slogan NA: Never Alone
Means so much to me. I know what it feels like to be alone and I would never wish to feel like that ever again.

I thank each and every person in my network and in the fellowship in general. It is because of you that I am able to share my experience, strength and hope and get the help that I so desperately need on a daily basis. I am grateful that I am not alone.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease