I am responsible for my recovery, my happiness, my responsibilities, my life. I cannot rely on anyone to do anything for me. It is my journey and mines alone.
I am not saying that I don’t need help along the way. That would be dishonest. I would be lying to not only you but to myself. If I believed that I would be doing a gigantic disservice to myself. I would be once again saying that I can do this by myself and I don’t need you. That would also imply control. I know what happens when I begin to think that I am in control.
What I am saying is, I cannot depend on others to do for me what I need to be doing for myself. I cannot think that anyone can live my life for me. I also cannot live the life you want me to live. I have to find my own way. Find what works and doesn’t work for me and grow at my own pace not anyone else’s.
I cannot pretend to be further along than I am in my process. I cannot live in the future, when I am just beginning to learn how to stay in the present.
I am right where I need to be and I am happy with that.
Peace and Blessings