I can remember not to long ago not taking any responsibility for my actions. I would run, duck and dodge my responsibilities like I was a professional running back dodging tackles. I refused to grow up and handle my business like a responsible adult.

Well maybe refused is not the right word. I just didn’t know how. I was too focused on using. I lost the ability to think straight and therefore was unable to deal with life on life’s terms.

But life has a funny way of showing up and forcing you to take a look at certain things and then forces you to deal with it. Like it or not.

My past has been catching up to me recently. Yes folks recovery doesn’t make me exempt from my past responsibilities. I have been in a major financial storm lately and I am doing my best to weather this storm. I am being knocked down and around by it and to be honest. There are times when I feel like giving up. Throwing in the towel.

Quitting when the road get rough has been my M.O. for the majority of my life. Taking care of business is new and can be overwhelming at times. I am learning to sit still and deal. Even when every fiber of my being is screaming for me to run.

I don’t like the uncertainty of my predicament at the present time. But I am in it for the long run. I know that its always darkest before the dawn. That this too shall pass and all that but I am still that addict who doubts himself and lacks faith at times.

I will continue to pray and hold on tight come hell or high water. Using is not the answer to any problem today. I am grateful that today I have other options.

Life will continue to show up. Its how I choose to deal with it today that helps me know that I am growing and change is happening.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

6 thoughts on “LIFE SHOWS UP.

  1. Eric, as you are well aware, the toughest part is at times facing the responsibilities that we have. You are right also in that when we change lifestyles, thought patterns, and desires, there still may be consequences from our previous lifestyle to face and be accountable for.

    You already have the important parts covered. You accept the responsibility, and you will take care of the responsibility, you are just not sure how yet.

    Now for the most important part that you already know also. God knows your situation. Since you now have faith in Him, you can continue to call to Him to guide you in the way to handle and get through this. His Word says He will guide us. His Word says He will give Wisdom when asked. His Word says He will provide for our needs. His Word says to seek wise counsel in matters.

    I don’t know how the U.S.A. system works, but we have organizations that assist in getting people back on their feet financially, regardless of how they arrived at their current level.

    Eric, I will be praying more specifically for you now.
    First–for you to have peace that only God can give during this time of turmoil.
    Second–through a combination of you seeking, and Divine intervention, you will connect with
    wise financial counsel who are also understanding and will give good direction.
    Third–that you will keep seeking God’s way, and know His leading.
    Fourth–that our God will meet every need you have, and you will recognize Him doing it.

    God’s Blessings and Peace my Friend.

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