JUST FOR TODAY


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“Living just for today relieves the burden of the past and the fear of the future.  We learned to take whatever actions are necessary and to leave the results in the hands of our Higher Power.” Basic Text Page 94

I can remember in my active addiction when I used to get paid on Friday, be broke by Saturday and already be planning what I was going to buy with my next check. I can also remember times when I would play out scenarios in my head about people I haven’t even met yet.
For instance :
I see a pretty young lady on the train. In my mind I picture us together, then arguments break out, then things get worse and we end up never speaking to each other again. All this plays out in mind. We done went through a divorce and I dont even know her name. SMH.

In the hear and now, I find myself sometimes being stuck in fear of trying something new because of past failures. I replay a scenario of a failed attempt at something that happened years ago and find myself apprehensive of what might happen.

I can go on but then I would have to write a book and not a post.

I am learning the importance of living in the here and now. Fear of the past or the future can stop me from reaching my full potential and will run rampant if not checked. It is vital to my recovery and my everyday life that I focus on today and do the best I can in the moment. I have no control over the outcome of any given situation but I do have control over making the efforts.

I believe in the Just For Today philosophy and it has proven to be very helpful in my recovery process.

Live, Love, Laugh and Let Go.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

6 thoughts on “JUST FOR TODAY

  1. I do not follow a ton of blogs and looked at your reasons for writing and thought it would be interesting to see your perspective on life. I really like how succinctly you talked about focusing on the here and now. I look forward to reading more posts and conversing. Have a great day! Oh, and congratulations on your sobriety!

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  2. Yes it works! Yesterday was K pay day he went home…I knew why, he was supposed to come back to mine he didn’t. In the past when I was sick I would have phoned and phoned txt him got stressed not slept wondered what if what if…played a million different scenarios out in my head ( just like you) but this time I called he didn’t answer I txt did he want me to cook for him was he coming back? He didn’t answer so I just focused on my needs chilled out and went to bed. Sounds easy but it wasn’t I have had to work hard at not worrying about things that 1 are out of my control and 2 never as bad as I think they are! Live just for today! Or just for this moment. He called this morning I said I thought it was disrespectful – that if he wants to hang out with his buddies and take drugs that is his business and whilst not my choice it is his, BUT he should have let me know he wasn’t coming home that’s all. Of course when you are with your mates and using phoning home to say you’re staying out either doesn’t come into your head ( his words) or you feel bad about what you are doing when you have done 2 weeks without so feel guilty and as though he had let him and me down ( my words) But yes live for what is not what was or might never be, it’s a good place to be, we find serenity 😊 thanks for sharing

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    • Thank you Karen for sharing your thoughts and your journey along the road to recovery with me. No its not easy sometimes to stay in the here and now but it does help and it does work better that way. I am sorry to hear that K is struggling. I know all to well where he is at. I will continue to keep you both in my prayers. Thank you for your support and encouragement as always my friend. 🙂

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