For way too long I have lived my life settling for less. What ever happened I just went with the flow. I just existed and never attempted anything outside of my little square.

As a result I am now looking back and feeling like my life has been a total waste. I know that I cannot change the past. I know that I have to move forward. Yada yada yada.

I can’t help but feel some kind of way. I am feeling depressed or saddened when I think about all that wasted time. I am at a peak in my life. The uphill battle that I should’ve experienced was more a struggle only to have just been  standing still for 40 years. No progress just a vicious cycle over and over again.

I have had it with just settling for what ever happens. I am sick and tired of not trying because of fear and lack of confidence. I am done with feeling like I am less than or not as good as others because of my past. Not taking risks, healthy risks of course to move to the next level in my personal life.

Those days are over.


Today’s a new day. Today I will take risks to better my life. Today I will take a chance and live life to its fullest. I am going for the 1st class and not settle for scrambling for the crumbs like a pigeon.

My life has gotten so much better but I am still not satisfied. I am not satisfied because I am struggling with where I am at. I want change but I haven’t been working towards it wholeheartedly. I need to apply my recovery to ALL areas of my life and I have been slacking in certain areas.

That changes today.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

17 thoughts on “TAKE A RISK

  1. Hi Eric. While reading “Take A Risk”, thoughts came to mind that we probably all may have some regrets due to actions we did not take a few years ago. Each of our lives are different, your life was different than mine, much different, but that does not mean that I don’t have regrets, that I didn’t miss, and pass up opportunities in life that I know now, and knew then, I should have taken or acted on.
    I allowed a variety of things to stop me from what I knew I should be doing. I know at a young age I had God’s calling to be in ministry, not as a preacher, but as a minister on the street, helping people, basically a lot of the things I am now trying to do,
    I allowed others to dissuade me when I was young. As well as having people laugh, and make comments such as “you want to do what?” Even family and church leadership were not encouraging.
    I guess my thought, or point to you is Eric, it is never too late. You have turned a big corner in your life, helping and encouraging many, and I truly believe you have many good things ahead of you where many people will learn, be blessed, and have improved lives also.

    I understand that depressed and saddened feeling, but we can’t look at that and dwell there. We can learn from the past, and use it as a stepping stone, jumping off point into new ventures.
    Overcoming fear, and lack of confidence were also big things, and still are at times. Avoiding people who speak negativity in your life is a big thing. Supposed “friends” at times are the worst, so we need to overlook and overcome them.
    Eric, once you set your heart on doing something, we know you can do it, and will do it. God will help, strengthen, and guide you. You are a great help to so many now, and I believe this number is minuscule compared to those you will meet in cyberspace via blogging, other methods, as well as in person.
    You are a blessing Eric, Thank You. God’s Blessings as you continue.

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    • I know all to well those feelings and I am glad that today I share them instead of acting on them. I have learned so much from my past and although the regret pops up every now and again I do know how far I have come. I am not that same person who allowed the negative comments of others feed my own personal fears. I appreciate your support and encouragement and also the support from others who cheer me on. I never thought I could accomplish anything worthwhile but today I realize that I can do anything I put my mind to. I am amazed at times the things I am achieving and I believe that I will do so much more as long as I stay the course. Thank you George, I am grateful that we have crossed paths and I consider you a friend even if we have never met. I see the great work you do from reading your blog and I commend you wholeheartedly. Thank you for sharing and for being on this journey with me.

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  2. Your are Awesome Eric! Keep your head high and focused and you can accomplish anything. if you get off track just get back on track. Success is never a straight line as long as you get from point A to point B that is accomplishment! When I get overwhelmed i just use baby steps and lots of to do lists! 🙂

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    • Thank you Beth. I truly appreciate your kind words, support, encouragement and suggestions. I have been doing the baby steps and some meditation trying to get focused on what my next steps should be. I think I will try the to do lists. Sounds like just what I need. Thank you again and have a blessed day.


  3. I understand your sentiments. I am happy for you that you want to make more of your life it sounds as though you are ready to move on. Recovery is a full time job. Or at least to start with its a full time job. But we know what ifs never can be changed only I cans. Don’t regret not finding the path you wanted until later in life- that was your path for a reason. Embrace it for it has made you the man you are now a man that gives inspiration and hope to so many. Reading your journey has given me hope you’re proof this works. None of it was in vain. Now it sounds as though you are ready for the next phase. I too with a good job a house a good income a car look back and think I must be a disappointment to my family because I don’t have children I don’t have a stable relationship 2 failed marriages. I have been unhappy longer than happy. I have many regrets…I think what I am trying to say is no matter what we can always be too judgemental of ourselves and the life we have lead. But yet others do take strength and hope from our journeys because we have achieved much in their eyes. And you my friend have achieved so much and now you are ready to find out what the next phase of your life has in store! I look forward to finding out what that will be. 😊

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    • Thank you Karen. That is exactly what I am feeling. A bit disappointed and regretful but also happy and excited all at the same time. Confused to say the least. Lol. I know that I have made some major strides in the last year and a half but still feel like somethings missing. It is true I am very harsh and critical of myself and I know that I should stay in the moment and enjoy life a day at a time and I will continue to pray and practice that. I am grateful that yourself and others take strength and hope from my journey because that in turn helps me too. I am ready for the next level whatever it may be. I look forward to seeing where my motivation takes me. Thank you soooo much for all your support and encouragement. I truly appreciate our friendship and am grateful to have you as a part of my network. Peace and blessings. 🙂

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      • I thank our HP’s that we have met! You see if someone else’s addiction and all the pain that caused me had not entered my life I would never have started writing my story on here and never have met you! I have many regrets but finding people on here is not one of them. I would never turn back the clock for all the pain and suffering addiction has brought because I know now I am with good people I would never have otherwise met… And you my cyber friend and your journey ( as I said) fill me with hope not just for me and my AOH but for you… Peace and love to you

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        • I also am grateful that we crossed paths and for the friendship we built here. I truly appreciate you, your strength and resolve. You helped me to see the damage that I have caused and helped me to better understand what I put others through. A valuable lesson indeed. Thank you for sharing and for being on this journey with me. Peace and blessings Karen. 🙂

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  4. I recently went through a phase where I was looking back on all the days I wasted just exsisting not living. I knew I had to stop looking back on the past and feeling horrible about what I did or didn’t do. I had to stop allowing my past to keep me from pushing forward and pursuing my dreams & goals. Praying for you Eric.

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