When I think back to my active addiction I remember I used to act off my thoughts without concern of the consequences. I would have a thought pop into my head and before long the thought turned into action. I wouldn’t be able to shake that thought until I did something about it.
Obsession and Compulsion
Obsession that over powering desire to use even when I know it is destroying my life. When I say use It not only has to do with drugs. Using anything to much. People, places and things are all included.
Compulsion. The inability to stop using once I have started. I am never satisfied and I will continue the behavior regardless of the consequences until I get what I want and even then continue. It is part of my cycle of insanity.
I still suffer from obsession and compulsion even in recovery. It can manifest itself in many different ways from eating to smoking cigarettes to being obsessed with my thoughts and actions about people. It can be detrimental to my health and well being and if not checked can cause some major damage and have serious repercussions. Obsessions are hazardous they can make me do things and act out in ways that are irrational.
I have a program today that helps me sort through my madness but even with a program my addiction (my thinking) can still wreak havoc. I have to remain vigilant and be sure to talk about the things that run through my mind. Its always good to run certain things by another person just to make sure my irrational thinking is not a back door insanity trip. I am grateful for my process and my network.
God is Good