I love to share my experience, strength and hope. I especially like sharing in a group setting. Once I get over my initial fear I usually end up feeling a weight lifted. The spiritual aspect of sharing my hopes and fears is uplifting and satisfying.
But being an addict I also have those thoughts of failure and disaster. I can think myself into not wanting to even open my mouth sometimes. I can create imaginary scenarios in my mind and fear can consume me and become overwhelming.
For me it’s a constant battle going on inside my head. I understand when people speak of the noise in their head. I have that noise too. It can be deafening at times. I am learning how to quite it somewhat and sharing about it helps.
I have learned the importance of exposing the things that bother me, that make me angry, sad or depressed. But also the things that make me happy, excited, hopeful, thankful and grateful. In other words what ever I am going through sharing it helps me to deal with it. It can also help those that I am sharing with.
“The spiritual principal of one addict helping another is without parallel. For one addict can best understand and help another addict.”
I will not allow my fears and imagination to dictate my actions or keep me from sharing, caring and growing.
Peace and Blessings