FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION


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Today I was in a meeting and the topic was Recovery and Relapse. I heard a lot of information and was able to identify because relapse is a part of my story.

I also shared my experiences with this topic. I shared about my struggles with identity from the early stages before drugs and how I started using to escape my feelings of low self worth. How I lived in a fantasy world for years creating different identities for myself because I didn’t like who the real me was.

I also shared how in the end, the loneliness and desperation got the best of me and how I thought about suicide everyday. I wanted to end my life because I didn’t want to live the life I was living anymore. I didn’t think that I would ever be able to stop the madness,  the insanity was too much.

I WAS TIRED OF PAYING SUCH A HIGH PRICE TO LIVE SO LOW.

I am so grateful that I am also able to share the hope that came about after the despair, degradation and destruction. The wonderful gift of life, a second chance at life that I have been blessed with. How I was brought back to a moment of clarity and able to give recovery one last try.

I am not ashamed to share my story for one very important reason.  I gives me freedom. I have learned acceptance of who I am today. I am NOT that person I pretended to be for so many years. I am NOT my mistakes, I am NOT my failures.

I AM NOT MY PAST.

I am experiencing FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION. I am experiencing life as I was meant to live it. It is only through my Higher Power’s Grace and Mercy that I am able to share my experiences with you all. That I am able to do the work necessary to maintain my freedom. That I am still alive.

I will not squander this opportunity for who knows if I will make it back. I for one am NOT willing to attempt to find out. I will stay the course, steady as I go. With the help of my network I stand a better chance than I ever will alone. I cannot do this by myself.

Freedom from active addiction ISN’T FREE. It takes commitment and hard work.

TODAY I AM COMMITED TO SAVING MY OWN LIFE. NOT DESTROYING IT.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

7 thoughts on “FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION

  1. Peace, freedom from active addiction is truly blessing. For many years I was caught in the grips of active addiction. Fortunately for me I was guided to the rooms of Narcotics
    Anonymous and rescued from the
    horrors of active addiction. GOD put
    a humble but stern person in my life.
    Stan the Man as He is affectlionally known as.When I asked him sponsor me He gave and taught me the tools
    of recovery. ..the 12 Steps. He has passed away And I want to Thank you Stan the Man for helping escape the horrors of active addiction. I’m going to miss you very much although I carry you in my heart and spirit. LOVE YOU ALWAYS STAN THE MAN…..

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    • Amen. Stan was an inspiration and will be missed but never forgotten. Thank you for sharing this Alan. I am grateful that you are a part of my journey brother. Peace and blessings.

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  2. “I am not my mistakes. I am not my failures. I am not my past.” Profoundly powerful statements that I am trying to remember each and every minute of each day. Thank you for the inspiration.

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    • You’re welcome Gloria. I am also. It’s hard at times but with the help of my support network it gets a little easier. Thank you for sharing your identification with it. Remember it one day at a time and sometimes on minute at a time. Peace and blessings.

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