It’s a suggestion in recovery to not leave your home without a destination. I have found that to be some very sound advice.
For a long time when I was using I would just be outside with no real plan or destination. I would be out just because.
Because I thought I would be missing something or someone would come through with something. Because I needed a couple more dollars to get my next one. Like I said Just Because.
I learned the hard way that always being outside with no particular place to go has it’s downsides. I became vulnerable to police harassments and became subject to criminal activities among other things.
Today I use this simple but effective formula and It has proven to be very valuable. If I have nowhere to go, I stay home. I haven’t had the urge to be on the scene since entering into recovery and that is the way I prefer it. No more police contact, no more scrounging for change to get the next nothing. No more standing on the corners like a damn statue in all sorts of weather.
Having purpose today gives me options that I didn’t know I had in my active addiction. I am not obligated by my imagination to be seen, or heard from by the addicted community today. I am comfortable sitting with myself in my own house doing absolutely nothing if I choose to do so.
I am grateful for change.
Change is necessary for my success.
I am no longer locked into the insanity that was my vicious cycle.
One Day At A Time.
Peace and Blessings