If I continue to follow what I want and not keep the focus on what I need. I will continue to run into the same obstacles.
In recovery we talk about INSANITY..
It is said to be doing the same things expecting different results. I always thought of that just pertaining to my active addiction. How I tried so many different ways to control my using only to end up with the same result but try again and again anyway.
I’ve come to recognize that same behavior in myself today. Clean. I still display the insanity of doing the same thing thinking this time it will be different. I know that drugs were only a small portion of my problem. My addiction shows up in many ways and I am still learning about my character defects and how they affect my life in the here and now..
WITHOUT THE USE OF DRUGS.
Real life experiences are meant to teach lessons. I love the spiritual awakenings that I am experiencing as a direct result of staying clean. Growing and learning who I am is awesome.
Peace and Blessings