MY CLEAN DATE 10/26/13

I was thinking today about my struggle to get and stay clean and I found this post in my drafts. I made a short list of every time I came back into recovery since the first time I tried to get clean back in 2011. There are some dates missing but this will give you a general idea of how I struggled.

I decided to share it with everyone because I just want you to know that although it was not easy for me to get clean.

I NEVER GAVE UP TRYING.

JUST FOR TODAY BY GOD’S GRACE I HAVE 1 YEAR, 4 MONTHS AND 1 DAY CLEAN.

If you are feeling like you cannot get clean, take it from me YOU CAN DO IT. Just never quit trying. I felt the same way. My road was long and hard. It is still hard but it has gotten a lot easier since I stopped using. I am grateful to all those who stuck by me and are still standing by me today. I could never have made it this far without you.

Thank you.

January 21, 2011
May 5, 2011
November 2, 2011
October 16, 2012
April 5, 2013
May 18, 2013
July 19, 2013
August 9, 2013
August 23, 2013
August 30, 2013
October 19, 2013
October 26, 2013

The struggle is real, getting clean was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have been blessed to live 2 life’s in 1.

My mission is to give back what was so freely given to me. One day at a time.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

GOOD INTENTIONS

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Saying I meant to stop by to see you when you was in the hospital is useless. Compared to actually going to visit.

I was good for saying what I was going to do..Should have, could have, would have but didn’t. I’ve never been a good friend, I was too busy being self centered. I thought too much about myself and could care less about others. I missed out on being there for family and friends time and time again.

Today I do things differently. Today I am there for others. But even more importantly I am there for them without looking for something in return. Today my intentions are truly good and not rooted in self centeredness. I’m not looking for a payoff or a pat on the back. I do it because I can and because I can.

I realize that a simple act of kindness can make someone’s day.

It did for me.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

BECAUSE I’M HAPPY. LOL

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Life On Life’s terms.

My day to day existence has it’s ups and downs. Life is just that way. No day will always be good but It doesn’t have to be labeled a bad day.

I used to wonder why everyone else seemed so happy and I was always so miserable. I’ve come to realize that happiness is an inside job. I cannot find it in you, for me. And you cannot find it in me, for you. I stopped searching for happiness and happiness found me. It came from me being ok with me.

DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER

I love my life today. I am content with where I am, who I am and what I am doing. I don’t need material things to make me happy. I have learned to be satisfied with the little things. I cannot complain about a damn thing right now. I roll with the punches.

Where I came from, to where I am today is all part of something that is way bigger than me. I’ve  made it this far and look forward to the journey ahead.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

I AM ME. WHO ARE YOU?

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I am what I am.

I am not what you want me to be.

If people cannot accept me for who I am. I have learned to exercise my options and leave them alone. I do not have to put up with anyone’s unnecessary bullshit today. I am not who I used to be. Wanting to fit in and belong so bad that I sacrificed my happiness. I know how to separate today and I will when I am uncomfortable.

I DON’T DO DRAMA

NOT TODAY.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

YOU CAN ONLY GIVE SUGGESTIONS

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I am in recovery and although my way has gotten me nothing but heartache and pain. I appreciate your support but I do not need you to try to tell me what to do. I am not your child. I will accept a suggestion but not in the form of a command or an order.

Remember its not what you say…

IT’S HOW YOU SAY IT!

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease