If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be. – Unknown
I met someone new.
Well thats not exactly true. We were friends for a while and got reacquainted again about 2 weeks ago.
We met back in 2012 during Hurricane Sandy. I remember I didn’t have my phone and I had to keep running outside in Hurricane weather to call her on the phone. We used to talk to each other everyday several times a day. I was dropping quarters in the phone like I was made out of them and I was loving every minute of it. I really liked her and was ready to finally settle down and do the right thing. Or at least that’s how I felt at the time.
I thought she felt the same way but without warning things changed. I would call and she wouldn’t answer. I would leave messages and no response. I couldn’t understand what happened I didn’t get any answers so I started to come up with my own. I guess I was moving to fast for my own good. I guess she wasn’t feeling me like I was feeling her. I was angry and hurt. But true to the saying This too shall pass.. It did. And eventually I forgot about her and moved on.
I never deleted her from my friends list on Facebook and a couple of months ago she sent me a message. I didn’t respond to it. Part of me wanted to but I was in a relationship and remembering how it was between us I decided it best not to. I am loyal to who ever I am with today and I don’t leave any openings or room for anything to disrupt my life and my relationships.
A lot of good that did me. I am single once again. But that’s who I am so be it.
I saw a post a couple of weeks ago from her and I decided to reach out to say whats up. Long story short we have been talking to each other and getting to know each other all over again. I have a part of me that is a little apprehensive and hesitant but its a very small part of me. I always felt that me and her were right for each other and I still feel that way now. I am not and I will not try to control the outcome. I will allow God in and guide me. I will not allow fear or any other negativity to dictate my life. I have made some mistakes in my life, but the biggest mistakes I have ever made was when I didn’t even try.
WE LIVE, WE LEARN AND WE KEEP IT MOVING.
Peace and Blessings