Good morning. The weather outside is frightful. Once again the East Coast is getting slammed with crazy weather storms. When I left my house this morning it was sleeting, when I got off the train it was snowing and right now it is raining. A crazy mixed up morning weather wise.
It has also been a crazy mixed up week for me personally. I have been going through a series of emotions and I have been a little off of my regular routine. I’ve been isolating and allowing my mood to dictate my actions.
NOT GOOD.
Although things have been a bit off I am still maintaining my recovery. I know that staying connected is a priority and I have not lost focus on my responsibilities.
Feelings come and feelings go. It’s imperative that I feel what ever I am feeling. Identify the source of those feelings, talk about those feelings and work through those feelings. No Matter What Happens
USING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I know that whatever I am going through will pass eventually. My addiction will always try to attack me when I am at my weakest moments. It is my responsibility to ensure that I do not
BELIEVE THE BULLSHIT,
that I fight those urges to self destruct, self harm will only lead to my demise. Nothing good will EVER come as a result of using.
I KEEP THAT UP FRONT.
No matter what comes down the pipe. My Quitting smoking, High Blood Pressure, High Cholesterol and Over Weight Ass will
Feel, Deal and Heal.
Peace and Blessings
Eric Ease
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Good Morning Eric. You certainly have developed a keen insight into yourself. Using is definitely not option NO MATTER WHAT for me neither. My sick as can be disease tells me it is the perfect solution to whatever I may be going through. Oh hell no that is most assuredly not the solution. Our weather upstate has been just as crazy. Today is supposed to be pretty decent then our temps are going to start falling back to below -0 wind chills oh yay! 🙂 Have an awesome day. Keep be vigilent it is working!
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Thank you Vicky. I have the same thinking. My addictions mad because I don’t believe that BS no more. Whoa below 0. OMG. Stay warm please my friend. Have a blessed evening.
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I needed to hear no matter what using is not an option. Because I just got my income tax refund, and my disease hit me hard. I don’t want to use. But for that few seconds, it crossed my mind. So thank you for your blog! I needed it.
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You’re welcome Danielle. Stay focused on your path. The thoughts will come but they will also go. Did you call our friend Kim yet? Reach out to your network when those thoughts come. Im glad you didn’t act off them and that you posted here to let us know. Keep the faith.
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Hey Eric. During life we seem to have the cycles of good days and bad days, with the good days outnumbering the bad as we move along and work at it. I am so glad and thankful for your support groups, and accountability partners. Keep the faith, and your positive attitude. God’s Blessings.
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Thank you George. I am grateful that the good days outnumber the bad days. For a long time it was the opposite. I am thankful for my support network as well and for you being a part of it too. Have a great day.
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Eric:
I just wanted to remind you that you are a fresh and welcome inspiration to me EVERY TIME I read your stuff. Thank you. ❤
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Thank you so much Americana. That just made my day. 🙂
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And by the way, silly boy…
overweight??? Seriously???
Cmon now, Boss…are you living in one of those clown mirror funhouses or something??? HUGS. Xx
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Lol. According to my doctor for my height I should be from 185 -200. Im at 223. Lmao 🙂 Thanks I needed that. 🙂
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Well your doctor is a fatmouth…I’m just sayin…BIG HUGS XxX
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Lol. Yup he definitely is. Big huggs back at you. (((((AMERICANA)))) 🙂
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