I am noticing that I have been isolating lately as a result I believe from my trying to quit smoking. I think that has something to do with it because other than that I am in a good space.
My quit has been a little difficult only because I thought I was ready but I am not. I will not say I was kidding myself because I do want to quit. I just need a little more time to get used to the idea. I enjoy smoking even though it is bad for my health. I really enjoy it and that is making it difficult. I have cut down dramatically I went from almost a pack a day to 3-5 cigs a day since February 1st.
So although I have not totally stopped I am still better off than I was last week. I am not justifying my situation I am telling you what it is. I WILL quit eventually I know this. I am not buying packs of cigarettes anymore and I continue to post in my support groups my progress.
Some of us are sicker than others. Some of us take longer than others. It a process not a race. I will quit in my time.
Anyway I have been very irritable and not feeling like being bothered by people. I haven’t been on my social media sites as much and been slacking in my meeting attendance. I will be going to my home group tomorrow and I will share where I am at. I know that Isolation leaves room for my addiction to try to slide in, but I am aware of it and I am taking measures to correct it. I am not feeling like using or depressed or anything like that. I am just feeling agitated from not smoking.
That’s where I am at today.
Peace and Blessings