KICKING THE HABIT IS KICKING MY ASS.


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Well I have to be honest. Quitting smoking has proven to be a bit more difficult than I thought it would be.

First let me give you a little background. I’ve smoked cigarettes practically all of my life. I started by picking up the butts out the ashtrays and then graduated to stealing them out the pack. My desire to fit in eventually turned into a full blown habit by then the addiction to nicotine had it talons dug firmly into me.

I continued to smoke for years without giving it a second thought. I didn’t realize that I was addicted until I was locked up and couldn’t smoke in receiving. I remember feeling like I was going to go nuts. Even after getting through that situation I continued to smoke.

My addictive behaviors manifest themselves in many areas of my life that have absolutely nothing to do with using drugs. I am addicted to anything that I perceive to give me pleasure. I know that today and I always looked at smoking as pleasurable..UNTIL NOW!

I know that all the urges and the irritable feelings will pass, but that doesn’t stop them from coming and at times consuming my every thought. I am grateful to my support network for being there for me. Without them I would be a loose cannon. Lol.

So I smoked 1 cigarette since February 1st after years of smoking just about a pack a day and sometimes more. Am I justifying smoking that 1.

YES I AM.
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

16 thoughts on “KICKING THE HABIT IS KICKING MY ASS.

    • Lol. That’s ok Danielle. Its not easy. I appreciate that you attempted and your support is awesome. Thank you for being on this journey with me. When you are ready I am here for you.

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      • Cool! I noticed when I quit (from 25-40 roll your owns a day) that my morning cough left after 3 days. Wow! That was amazing. πŸ™‚ My skin cleared up after about a week. And well, this is NOT something to look forward to, or maybe it is, but my ability to smell suddenly returned after 2-3 weeks. Not sure why it was so sudden. It hit me right in the face while walking in town. I did not know where to hide. #&@!!! It was shocking. Toilet visits suddenly were… well, you might not want to know that. Ghegheghe… you’ll find out yourself in a week or 2-3! :-D.

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