ADDICTIONS


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Addiction comes in many forms. Now that I am clean. I still suffer from many other addictions. Some healthy, some are not. What are you addicted to?

I remember when I first came into recovery. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I had a problem but I didn’t believe myself to be an addict. I always looked at an addict as being the homeless bum who shot drugs and drank wine and smelled horrible. Growing up in East New York Brooklyn I saw them everyday all day. I would avoid them at all costs. Who knew that years later I would be friends with a lot of those same people.

I didn’t believe that I would turn into one of “those people” as we sometimes refered to the addicts in my neighborhood. I never knew exactly what I wanted to be growing up. I was never asked that question and never really gave it much thought. But had I been asked I doubt I would’ve said I want to be an addict. The crazy thing is I was already an addict.

I think my first addiction was to lying and stealing. I didn’t like who I was so I lied and created a better version of me. I didn’t  like being poor so I stole what I wanted. If you had it and I wanted it. It would mysteriously disappear. Using came at the early age of 11 and that eventually became a new addition to my addictive behaviors.

Throughout the years many addictions to many different things surfaced and were replaced by new addictions. Drop one and pick up another. Always trying to satisfy my need for instant gratification and to fill one void or another. Never quite finding the satisfaction I was seeking.

I understand  addiction a little better today and I can see the many different types of addictions that surface in my life. Especially now that the drugs are no longer a factor. I am addicted to anything that makes me feel good. It really doesn’t matter what it is. If I like it, I will began the obsessive and compulsive behaviors. I will overdue, overindulge, overcompensate and overextend and over until I am overwhelmed.

The main difference is today I know. I work on my issues and recognize them. I have people who help me and I can talk to about it.

Therefore I will Overcome.

Peace and Blessings

Eric Ease

9 thoughts on “ADDICTIONS

  1. I’m sorry I posted prematurely. Congratulations on your year and change and your continued growth. I appreciate your taking the time to read and comment on my blog post. Have a fantastic day.

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  2. I surrendered to be free from the prison of my addiction by going into the program of NA and church. Today I’m still learning how to live life on life’s terms. Early in recovery I gained my family back and I’m so blessed to have a great support system!! I’ve got a year and some change and still growing to be what My God has me set out to be!!

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    • Thank you for sharing. I too am still learning how to live life on life’s terms. I will continue to learn for the rest of my life. It’s not easy at times but it’s possible. A day at a time I get better

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  3. This post has spelled out something about which I was in denial, but was obvious. Stealing > kleptomania = addiction. One of my addicted children started stealing when she was at primary school, and she would steal things for which she had no use. It was totally out of control and she must ahve been an addict even at the age of eight!
    Thank you again for your words of honesty and wisdom.

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    • You’re welcome Jane. Addiction come in sooo many forms that have absolutely nothing to do with drugs. Once we gain acceptance of it. Then we can heal from it. Thank you for sharing and as always your comment and support.

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  4. I switched the drug for school. I’m on the computer doing school work and studying from 6 or 7 am to 6 pm. I’m still obsessed, with something. I did want to be an addict when I grew up. My dad was, he died age 29. I was 8. I wanted to be like him….be careful what you wish for. Thank you for sharing. Once again, you make me feel not alone.

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    • Some addictions benefit us. Sometimes they are good. We just have to be careful that they don’t become obsessive and then harm us. I have heard it many times to be careful what I ask for. Danielle but I don’t think we actually ever wanted all the destruction and devastation that came with it.

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  5. You my friend are a blessed soul. The Cosmic Consciousness gave you a kick in the butt and you got it. You are an awakening soul who needed what you were learned. My friend/love is addicted to alcohol and abusive men. God have metcy on her. Peace

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