Tomorrow I will be going to a function called Men’s Unity Day.
At first I did not want to go. I was apprehensive because of the fact that I have trust issues with being around a bunch of men that stem from past experiences when there are a too many men together. Also all the men in my life that I looked up to as role models and such have all passed away or let me down in one way or another and I still have not come to terms with that yet. I used to run with the crew back in the days and every time we got together something would go wrong. I have trust issues period its not only with men but I don’t like being around too many at once. I know this is not like back then and I need to just let go and let god.
So like I was saying I was a little apprehensive but once I thought about it I decided to go. I think it’s high time that I work past any and all issues, real or imaginary that have stemmed from my active addiction. I think that it would be good for me to start bonding with the fellas and making new friends in recovery. I already know a lot of people who are going, my sponsor and his sponsor with be there plus some of my sponsee family will also be there. Some of the men from my home group will also be there. I know that I am not alone but sometimes doing new things can be a little scary. This year I have made a decision to reach out to more people that I do not know instead of staying in my comfort zone.
So I will be there at the Men’s Unity Day. I have no idea what to expect, what will be happening other than meetings but I look forward as always to be doing anything related to recovery. I am forever grateful that I am no longer chasing drugs or anything else that has to do with street life. I wouldn’t trade my life now for nothing in the world..Especially not my past. I will continue to do what ever is takes to maintain my freedom from active addiction.
JUST FOR TODAY. I WILL FACE AND CONQUER MY FEARS.