Wow this one took me back. The struggle is real. Live in active addiction from November of 2011.


I don’t know what the Fuck is wrong with me. Every day I say I’m going to stop and by the end of the day I go and pick up. I swear I feel at times that I would be better off dead. I am so fucking depressed and so fed up with the way my life is going. I know that I need to make meetings and I keep saying tomorrow, tomorrow never comes. I have to turn this around before I go insane and just give up. I don’t want to give up. I want to live. I need help.
Today is friday. Another trigger day for me. I know what needs to ne done but I’m caught up in the grips of my addiction. This Shit is killing me. Ughh. Why me. I’m feeling the self pity, the loneliness, not worthy of a good life…

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    • Amen. When I was reading it I was overwhelmed with gratitude for how far I have come since that post. It was a struggle at times and I don’t ever want anyone to think Its all peaches and cream. I am thankful for my higher powers guidance and all of my good friends who stuck by me. Especially you my friend you were there from the beginning. Thank you for all of your support.


  1. Well done Eric. You’ve come so far, and been an inspiration to others along the way. I really admire an addict in recovery who has his own difficulties, and yet reaches out to others who are still at the beginning of their struggle, although I think it’s also your pathway to success. x

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    • Thank you very much Jane. I am beginning to feel like my blog is actually helping people and its a blessing for me to be able to share my experiences with others. I finally found a purpose that I actually enjoy doing.

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