I have been trying to post something now for this the 2nd day and I am coming up blank. Lol. So I will just ramble.
I feel numb. I am in a state of calmness and there is just nothing going on with me at this moment and time. It feels kind of strange to actually have nothing going on. Actually it makes me a little nervous because now I am anticipating something to go wrong. My mind works like that.
If things are going good “something is going to happen”,
If things are going bad “I told you so”.
That has been my story for as long as I can remember. My mind is one big ball of Murphy’s Law..
If anything can go wrong, it will.
- If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong.
Extreme version: 1
If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the FIRST to go wrong.
Extreme version: 2
- If anything just cannot go wrong, it will anyway
- If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which something can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop.
So I wait.
Nobody said Life on Life’s Terms would be easy.
On a brighter note. I do not waste away my days waiting for doom and destruction. Thoughts of impending doom only pop in my head once in awhile. Usually when I have nothing to do or there is nothing going on. I’m sure you have heard that
An idle mind is the devils playground.
That is why it is very important for me to stay connected to the fellowship and my friends in recovery. I can’t stress it enough. I have learned this very important lesson the hard way and I do not wish to go back out and experiment again. I have been burned enough times to know that fire is hot. Dry ice burns too and there are other ways to get burned that have nothing to do with what I am talking about here so I wont mention STD’s
Being a test dummy is not as much fun as it looks on those TV commercials.