You always hear the saying “There’s a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s  usually associated with giving someone who is suffering hope. I know it well for I have used it several times myself. This too shall pass. Things will get better.

I like to think that I am a good friend to people today. Whether I know you personally or online. I like to think that I am a person who brings comfort and reassurance when someone is going through something. That I can give someone hope. Offer a suggestion to, or solution for, when someone is in need. That I like to believe about myself. I’m not sure how true it is. But I do make the effort.

The reason why I say certain things here in my blog is That’s how I feel. I am not better than and I damn sure am not cured or healed. I have insecurities just like anyone else. I might have more due to my past but lets just say for now just like everyone else. My goal is to become a people person…Not a people pleaser.

I have spent the better part of the last 30 years not giving a damn about others. I have done a lot of harm and some of the harm I cannot make amends for. I have heard that when you cannot make direct amends you can make them by changing the behavior.

That’s what I AM GOING TO DO. I am striving to be the opposite of who I have been ALL MY LIFE. I have made tremendous progress so far but there’s still a part of me that’s  resistant. So I take baby steps towards becoming a better me. No rush, no pressure. No perfection. Just progress.

God has blessed me with a second chance at life. I feel a obligation to share my experiences with others in hopes that I can at least help somebody that might think they cannot get or stay clean.

I have lived 3 lives in 1.

Life BC / Before Crack
Life AA / Active Addiction
Life AD / After Drugs


“You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.
Matthew 5:14 NLT


  1. You are so brave to share both your triumphs and struggles, it’s not easy to “undress” oneself and be so vulnerable and it is not easy to change either when we have been accustomed to certain behaviors for so long. My journey is about changing myself too and it goes up and down but damn I am not gonna stop fighting. You have much to be proud of and I’m honored to read along with your journey.


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