You always hear the saying “There’s a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s  usually associated with giving someone who is suffering hope. I know it well for I have used it several times myself. This too shall pass. Things will get better.

I like to think that I am a good friend to people today. Whether I know you personally or online. I like to think that I am a person who brings comfort and reassurance when someone is going through something. That I can give someone hope. Offer a suggestion to, or solution for, when someone is in need. That I like to believe about myself. I’m not sure how true it is. But I do make the effort.

The reason why I say certain things here in my blog is That’s how I feel. I am not better than and I damn sure am not cured or healed. I have insecurities just like anyone else. I might have more due to my past but lets just say for now just like everyone else. My goal is to become a people person…Not a people pleaser.

I have spent the better part of the last 30 years not giving a damn about others. I have done a lot of harm and some of the harm I cannot make amends for. I have heard that when you cannot make direct amends you can make them by changing the behavior.

That’s what I AM GOING TO DO. I am striving to be the opposite of who I have been ALL MY LIFE. I have made tremendous progress so far but there’s still a part of me that’s  resistant. So I take baby steps towards becoming a better me. No rush, no pressure. No perfection. Just progress.

God has blessed me with a second chance at life. I feel a obligation to share my experiences with others in hopes that I can at least help somebody that might think they cannot get or stay clean.

I have lived 3 lives in 1.

Life BC / Before Crack
Life AA / Active Addiction
Life AD / After Drugs


“You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.
Matthew 5:14 NLT