I am far from the go to guy.
Truth is I often wonder why people ask me questions about recovery. I need to let you know that I am still a sick and suffering addict. The difference is, today I am not sick and suffering from drugs. Now that the drugs are gone, the real issues start to surface. The issues that made me use drugs in the first place. The low self esteem and low self worth. The fear of success and fear of anything just fear in general. Not fitting in, not feeling loved or wanted, loneliness. You name it. I work very hard at finding out who I am, exposing my demons and repairing damage that I have done to myself. It is not a easy task but I remain willing because I want to become a better person.
I know that I have lived the life and by the grace of God made it out.
I am placed in a position to be able to offer my experience in the hopes that I can help at least one person. If I can help anyone I will be more that glad to do so. But I need to remember that I can only tell you what worked for me. I cannot get into telling anyone what they should or should not do. I know that being a addict I can easily slip into the all to familiar disease of CRS
CAN’T REMEMBER SHIT. (STUFF) Lol
I NEED TO KEEP UP FRONT THAT I ONLY HAVE A DAILY REPRIEVE AND IF I FORGET WHERE I CAME FROM, I AM DOOMED TO REPEAT. I CANNOT AFFORD TO PAY THE HIGH PRICE TO LIVE SO LOW…
I am just slightly different than your average blogger. I write my blog basically about me with a little twist. I give you the before and then how it is now. I write about my drug addiction to crack, alcohol and what ever else I used. I do not sugar coat it, I do not use too much profanity to make my point, I just try to be as honest as I can so you can get the real feel of how this addict and his addiction lived and is living now.
I appreciate all of my readers, your thoughts and comments mean the world to me. I get strength in the midst of my struggle from all of you. Please feel free to message me either here on the blog or go to the contact me page and send me a email. I love to hear from you.
Thank you for allowing me to share.