Today is Christmas Eve and I just want to wish everyone a Happy, Healthy and Safe Christmas.
I send this message especially to all my fellow friends around the world who are in recovery. This is one of the hardest holidays of the Holiday Trifecta. And I want to remind everyone, including myself to be extra vigilant.
Christmas is a time for family and
“good cheer”. I have to remember that not everyone is in recovery like me. I am responsible for my recovery. No one can keep me clean but myself. Our family members who are not in recovery might be able to drink, smoke or whatever thats their business. I know that I cannot. I have to keep up front what will happen to me, if I choose to use.
I cannot force anyone not to do it around me. I have to be responsible enough to remove myself from any harmful situations. If I am uncomfortable then I need to be able do the next right thing. LEAVE.
Addiction is a deadly disease that wants nothing less than our death. It will however settle for us being miserable, desperate, out of control, lost, hopeless, worthless and back in its grips. Don’t be fooled by the voices in your head telling you that “one is ok” or that “no one will know”, or that “you aren’t worthy of staying clean”.
REMEMBER THAT ADDICTION IS:
BAFFLING, CUNNING, INSIDIOUS AND WANTS YOU DEAD! IT WILL TRY EXTRA HARD TO GET YOU BACK TO USING. DON’T BELIEVE THE LIES..
Arm yourself with the tools of your recovery. For me its going to be the marathon meetings. I am not going to be with my family. I will be with my family in recovery. I will be doing service and sharing my experience, strength and hope. Do what you know works.
I will keep each and every one of you in my prayers. WE can stay clean through the holidays.
If no one has told you they love you today..I love you.
Peace and blessings everyone.