I have lived my life one way for as long as I can remember. That way was my way or the highway. I can remember as far back as elementary school wanting what I wanted and wanting it NOW!
Patience was NEVER my strong suit and as I grew older so my impatience grew stronger. So needless to say that I wasn’t the nicest person in my active addiction. I had to have it..
WHAT EVER IT WAS.
I had to have it now. Sooner rather than later. Today not tomorrow. In fact I wanted it yesterday. You move to slow I got irritated, you talk too much I was liable to do you something terrible. I hated everything about waiting.
Now that I am a recovering addict, you might think that I am grateful and have learned a thing or two. I have. I’ve learned that recovery is a process and I will not change everything overnight. I have learned that I am living a new way of life and no one that has experience in any area was born with that experience. There is always a beginning. A starting point. Lessons to learn. Studying, practice and application.
The same applies when it comes to learning to deal with and change certain character defects. Applying patience goes a long way. I am getting better at it. I still suffer from instant gratification syndrome but just for today I am learning how to wait for it.
WHAT EVER IT IS!