It’s truly saddens me when people with no inkling of an idea what addiction is, think they know what they are talking about. You know the one’s. You probably have heard them spewing a bunch of bullshit like “Addicts have control over their using” or “They can stop if they want to, they just don’t want to”. I wonder what drugs they were addicted to that was so easy for them to control and stop when they decided they had enough.
Oh you say you are not an addict, well then that explains everything.
I want to let people know first hand what it is like to be a person recovering from the horrors of addiction. That is why I write my blog. I am not writing my thesis. I am not speaking from years of college experience. No I do not have a bachelor’s or a masters degree. I am not versed in the lingo of the educated well rounded individuals who have spent countless hours in the classroom study up on the subject of addiction.
I have another kind of education.
I my friends have a PHD.
POSTHUMOUS. DESCRIPTION. / PAIN. HOMELESSNESS. DERELICTION / PLENTY. HOMIES DEAD.
PLENTY HARD DRUGS. (I could go on and on but back to the post)
I my friends was there. While you my friend was not. I know what addiction does to not only the person who is suffering but also what it does to the family members who also are suffering. I know what it is like to come to and even though you know you are barely alive to still want to use. To be sick and suffering and have no control over the desire, the uncontrollable urge to continue using. To pray for death because the pain you are going through is unbearable. To know that what you are doing is killing your family and inside be hurting but can’t live without getting another one. To not be able to feel for anyone anymore because you are caught up in the grips of addiction and feel that there is no way out.
I know what hopelessness, worthlessness and uselessness feels like first hand. I know what homelessness and despair feel like. I know what isolation and degradation feels like. Do you?
I know all about it. I lived it.
So please do me a favor. Before you go and pass your educated judgement on someone because after all you know what you are talking about right. Before you condemn someone who is suffering, before you put your stamp of disapproval with your know it all ass on a person sick and suffering or on a person in recovery before you add to the already out of control stigma that is associated with THIS DISEASE.
Get your facts straight.
KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE.