Watching Netflix just aint the same. Sometimes when there is a major change its hard for me to adjust. I’ve been grumpy and lazy all day. A part of me is gone and im feeling some pain. I just wish that things could have been different. Live and let live. Now I will adjust because I need to find the real me. Not someone else’s me but the real me. I’ve been going through withdrawal symptoms today. A lot of memories. Some good times, some bad times and then some more bad times. Life is funny that way. But I aint smiling. I must have missed the joke or was I the joke. Crazy thoughts running through my mind again. I need to quiet those negative thoughts.  I did my best and that all I can do. But for whatever its worth. I do miss you.