I am both excited and a little scared. I will be celebrating my 1 year anniversary tomorrow. At first I didn’t want to but my girlfriend talked me into it. After all it is a big deal. I have never been able to accumulate more than a couple of months if that in the past. I am grateful for this new life that I am living and look forward to and also dread tomorrow at the same time. It’s a fear for me because my disease always wants to disqualify me. It tells me that I am not worthy and that I am still a failure. I will not allow this disease to steal my joy any longer. KICK ROCKS ADDICTION.

Well it’s just another fear that I will face and get past. Thank God for recovery!!


  1. Congratulations and happy clean day! Just remember what it took to get you here and tell your group your story so that you may help others who are on the same journey. Hugs! 😀

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  2. enjoy your day,eric.I remember my 1st year I had a lot of fears,but I also knew I never wanted to live like that again.and when I cleaned up I didn’t do treatment,no 12 step program.what kept me going in the beginning was living in hell again.remember,eric it is still a day at a time,even a minute at a Na group in seattle had a saying,we will always gave a tiger living inside of us,just waiting to be fed,never feed it!!have a great day celebrating your recovery!!

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    • Thank you Adele. I will not feed the tiger I know what happens when I do and I do not wish to go through that again. Living in hell is right and its definitely not an exaggeration. Peace and blessings my friend.


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