Good morning. I pray that you are well and everything is going good. If you are not and are facing a storm. Hold on tight because THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
I am grateful to my higher power for recovery. The process of Narcotics Anonymous and my network of new friends. The fellowship has helped me tremendously. It has taught me how to begin to be a responsible person. I am learning how to show up not just for others but finally for myself. I am beginning to see that a lot of the things I grew up believing to be fact and a way of life were instead wrong all wrong. I have been so off course for so long that its hard at times to change my ways. I find myself back sliding at times but today I can see it and change it. I am growing up and although it feels strange I am learning to accept it and not run from it.
I am in Miami right now. I just got back from a cruise to the Bahamas. Go figure. A crackhead like me taking a vacation. I remember vacations being trips to prison or a treatment facility just to get a break from using. That was the insanity that was my life. Today things are a lot different. I see life today and I am practicing not taking it for granted. I am becoming increasingly more open minded as time goes by. I am able to take suggestions today when before I was a know it all and wouldn’t listen to anyone. I payed a hefty price for my hard headedness and finally learned a valuable lesson.
I know that drugs DO NOT WORK. I KNOW THAT I MUST NOT USE NO MATTER WHAT. I know that using is not the answer. Nothing good comes from using. My life will spiral out of control if I pick up and death is only a puff or drink away. I am grateful for my past but I don’t live there anymore. I have finally moved on to my next chapter and will not look back.
Thank you all for being on this journey with me. I pray for each and every one of you every day. If no one has told you they love you today. I do and so does God.
Peace and blessings
Eric Ease 🎭