I pray that when you are reading this that all is well with you. If it is not hold on this too shall pass.
First and foremost I give thanks to the God of my understanding for EVERYTHING. I know that without my higher powers guidance I would not be here to share with you today. For this I am FOREVER GRATEFUL.
Its been a couple of months since my last post and for this I apologize. Life on life’s terms has a way of keeping me busy. I make no excuse for my life today and I am grateful that I am able to handle my responsibilities responsibly. Today when life shows up I am learning to look at it for what it is and react accordingly. I am learning to take a step back and gather my thoughts before taking action. This is huge for me because I have always been a reactor. Act first think later and that almost never has a positive outcome.
Although life has many ups and downs today I am not running from them. I have finally come to the realization that I have no control over others actions, my addiction or people, places and things. I only have control over how I choose to respond to situations. I have finally surrendered and became open minded and willing to try a new way. I am finally able to accept suggestions and able to share honestly to the best of my ability. I am not totally honest all the time but I am getting better at it day by day. I am a work in progress and its a process, MY process. I am not in competition with you or anyone else.
I have been in and out of recovery for years. Relapse is a part of my story and I do not hesitate to share that. I know all to well that it is a reality and can happen again if I do not continue to practice living God’s will for me and not my own. If I stop doing what is working for me right now. Making meetings, talking with my sponsor and other recovering addicts, doing stepwork and reading the literature, being of service and reaching out to the new comer is a vital part of my survival in recovery and I am willing to take that extra step and go that extra mile today.
A lot has happened since my last post back in May. Some good some bad. One thing is for sure. I DID NOT USE. It’s a great feeling to be able to say that. With the guidance of my Higher Power and my network and doing the work necessary today I have 9 months clean and I look forward to many, many more to come.
Thank you as always for allowing me to share my experience, strength and hope with you. I pray that my blog helps someone who may or may not be struggling. Remember One day at a time is all we have.
Peace and Blessings.