Good morning everyone.
I thank God for giving me another chance at life. I am grateful.
I always start my day off praying a thankful prayer and asking for guidance. I am truly blessed and I try to remember to be humble because it’s not my own doing. I know that there is a higher power at work in my life.
For a long time I thought that I was in control and that I made things happen in my life. Good or bad I was the one who made it so. I used to blame God for my troubled past and was clear that he didn’t care about me but thanks to my new awareness as a result of doing some stepwork I realized that God was always there for me, offering me a way out but I was so closed minded and angry that I couldn’t see it.
I was stuck in a pity potty, woe is me, why me frame of mind. I was scared to do anything new so I stayed in my situation and blamed everyone else for my misery. I was afraid, lost, lonely and that made me bitter. I isolated myself from the outside world and lived in my own self made prison. I didn’t think It would ever get better. I was hopeless. I felt worthless and useless.
Today thanks to my HP God, The Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, my sponsor and my network I am recovering from that fear, isolation, degradation and feelings of worthlessness and uselessness. I am gaining strength and confidence. I am facing my fears and learning how to work through them. I am becoming more responsible and productive. I am changing and I am grateful.
One day at a time my life is getting better. I am at a place in my life I have never been and its exciting and new and I welcome it. I have 5 months 3 weeks and 5 days. I am 2 days short of 6 months clean and it will only get better as long as I stay in position.
Peace and Blessings.